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i am starting to think that i made the worst decision in my entire life. i promised myself that i wouldnt regret dropping education as a major, but now that i have graduated and i am sitting here without a job and struggling to find something in theatre, i am beginning to think i should have sucked it up and finished those last 3 classes i had. thats all i was away, 3 classes and student teaching and then i could have graduated with an BA in elementary ed as well. but thats not how it worked out. and now i am sorry that i didnt finish. i cant find a job in theatre (well one that will hire me) and there is less opportunity in pittsburgh. i will never make any money in theatre to live and now i am stuck at home with nothing to do. i did at least call a couple of places today to volunteer, but we'll see if that works out. but there were good reasons i dropped education. i physically couldnt take 6 classes, stage manage a show, spend 6 hours a week in a classroom, and miss a half a dozen directing classes to be in a stupid education course that didnt seem to be teaching me anything. those stupid women didnt teach me anything about teaching math and science. i also dont feel like i would have been qualified to teach children. i didnt learn anything in those education classes. to this day, i have no idea how to teach reading to a child. i would be f'ck'd. BUGGER ALL. i love children and i love to work with them, but i dont agree at all with the teaching methods that i was being taught (or lack there of). i just i am just frustrated with the fact that i cant find a job in the field i went to school for 4 years for that i LOVE and almost wanting to take the easy way out and teach. i have been thinking about teach for america and how i should have just applied to it. it would have been a solid job for 2 years, but then all these thoughts come rushing in and i think that i will loose 2 years of my life to doing something that i dont know if i love anymore. oh i guess i just miss everyone and wish that i could go back to school forever where i was comfortable and felt at home for the first time in a long time.
wow that was a lot of ranting. and people think i am quiet....that is until they get me to talk and then i dont shut up. nothing else to do, so i am going to go watch wholesome tv, the gilmore girls, or whats left of it.
(ps. i have one month to the day til my birthday, if anyone cares)
wow that was a lot of ranting. and people think i am quiet....that is until they get me to talk and then i dont shut up. nothing else to do, so i am going to go watch wholesome tv, the gilmore girls, or whats left of it.
(ps. i have one month to the day til my birthday, if anyone cares)