Food...

[emdudes]

it's just not that appetizing at the moment. i'm not eating again. i can't really afford to be doing that. but i'm so stressed and my neck hurts so bad that it's making me not want to eat. i've been drugged non stop for about two and a half weeks. BLAH. actually smoked with taylore last night just to make it all go away, and what do you know, i slept better than i have in soooo long. sad to say. it helped. oh well, hadn't actually done that since the fourth of july, and it's not gonna be a habit again. so there. i've officially tried to justify it for myself, awesome. anyway, my stomach is actually growling really hecticly but i don't know what to eat, so i guess i'll go figure it out. what is up with life right now, it doesn't feel like it's mine. it doesn't feel like i'm living the life i'm so used to living. i don't think i like it.

If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh,
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

The Fray- Look After You