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[emcee65]

I don't know why i have been so sad
i guess it's all i have to lose
and all i've lost so far
i try to not get too close
because once i do i don't go back
i've lost everything that was in my heart
and that i held so dear
eveything i had my hopes and dreams in
even the first love i ever had
it's all gone and there's no coming back
and it was at those times that all was good
i was happy and close to everything
but when they died so did i
and now when things go good
or i find myself in love
i turn away
because to lose it again
would cause too much pain
even though i wish i could still hold on
these finger nails were cut to short
and can't dig deep to save my life
though i don't believe in suicide
i have killed myself so many times
that's why i can't hold on anymore
because theres nothing left on the inside
so why do i cry now when i didn't before
this doesn't make sense
i look around and i still see no sholders
alone in the dark
i'll sit