ugg w/e
so yea u kno that whole thing about how i was so proud of myself, well now im incredible pissed off at myself. i didn't make middle school advocates, my grades SUCK and i think im getting worse at lacrosse everyday. im really disappointed in myself about the way i've been acting towards evan. i mean im a fucking psycho and then i don't even kno y. he just pisses the fuck out of me. and i realize now that if i had just shut up 3 months ago and let things be we probly could have been friends by now but its too late for that. even if he apologized i don't think i could forgive him now, i mean after everything he's done, we're just never gonna be friends again. and that hurts so fucking much. i mean i hate the way things are and im kicking myself bc its mostly my fault that thier that way. i just want this to be over. over but peacefully...guess im not gonna get that, and i'll have to deal.