life is killing me
My life is pointless.
No! beyond pointless, I cant do anything never will. Im good at nothing i cant complete anything IM usless! absoutly useless. just a pile of fat flesh walking around taking up positive enegery and turning it negative. I dont do anytthing because I CANT DO ANTHING. I wake up everyday, my life is this wheele thats never going to stop! wake up, feel like shit, go to town BORED AND HOT go home wake up feel like shit go to town BORED AND HOT...etc. 'get a job' you say...I FUCKING HATE WORKING im just as happy without money, that makes no difference. I cry and hate life even more when im working. 'go to school' IM FUCKING DUMB AS SHIT. I cant write essays, not even if my life was on the line. I havnt compleated a school assignment since year 6!!! CMON! im shit. im really fucking stupid. i cant complete anything. NOTHING.
IM FAT. 'obease' in doctors terms. its unplesant and uncomfortable. I TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT i fucking try, ive done diets, i fucking joined a gym! I WALK EVERYWHERE! yet all that happens is that i get fatter and fatter by the day. ITS GROSE. im so uncomfortable in my body. im ugly and look like a moster from hell. fat fat fat fat faty fat fat fat fat fat f at fat fat . THATS FUCKING RIGHT.
DRUGS...THEY DONT EVEN WORK ANYFUCKINGMORE! weed just dosnt do what it used to do, it dosnt relax me, it dosnt take me to where i used to be. I hate drinking. Acids nearly impossible to get and exspensive and i dont like my brain exploding that often. so i keep trying to smoke and smoke and smoke thinking it will change but it wont. and its not. IM SO FUCKING PISSED OFF. I really hope im pmsing...i really do. I havnt got my period yet...THATS ALL I FUCKING NEED. I hate summer with a passion. WE ARENT EVEN IN SUMMER ANYMORE! its fucking autum and its HOTTER THAN SUMMER. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING BECAUSE ITS SO FUCKING HOT. AND WE DONT HAVE AIRCON BECAUSE WE ARE POOR. SO FUCKING POOR. we have money for nothing. we cant even afford food. we spend 50 dollars a week, if not that! on food..and its all vedgies!A RGH. AND MY COMPUTER IS A PEICE OF SHIT. FUCKING CRAP WHORE BITCH CUNT NOTHING WORKS. fucking msn never works thu the day...i fucking cant stand it. MY LEGS ARE SO FUCKING FAT...theres fat everywhere..everywhere i look on my body is just obese its disgusting. I just want to fucking slice it all off. I HATE IT. MY SKIN IS SO ITCHY. I FUCKING HATE THIS WEATHER. ARGH. does this even HALF explain how fucked off i am?! how SICK OF EVERYTHING I AM?!?! BECUASE I HATE NOTHING AND WILL ACHIVE TO NOTHING!? I cant do anything i have no motivation. NEVER HAVE NEVER WILL SO DONT FUCKING TELL ME ANY DIFFERENT. IF YOU EVEN FUCKING THINK ABOUT COMMENTING WITH SOME CRAP LIKE 'oh cristina! your so great tho! and beautiful!' ILL FUCKING SLICE YOUR THROAT IN YOUR SLEEP BECAUSE IM SICK OF CRAP LIKE THAT BECAUSE ITS ALL FUCKING LIES...MAYBE LIFE IS CRAP?! EVER THOUGHT ABOUT THAT ONE?! MAYBE SOME PEOPLE ARE HERE FOR NO REASON!? WHAT ABOUT THAT!...ahhh type o negative.
No! beyond pointless, I cant do anything never will. Im good at nothing i cant complete anything IM usless! absoutly useless. just a pile of fat flesh walking around taking up positive enegery and turning it negative. I dont do anytthing because I CANT DO ANTHING. I wake up everyday, my life is this wheele thats never going to stop! wake up, feel like shit, go to town BORED AND HOT go home wake up feel like shit go to town BORED AND HOT...etc. 'get a job' you say...I FUCKING HATE WORKING im just as happy without money, that makes no difference. I cry and hate life even more when im working. 'go to school' IM FUCKING DUMB AS SHIT. I cant write essays, not even if my life was on the line. I havnt compleated a school assignment since year 6!!! CMON! im shit. im really fucking stupid. i cant complete anything. NOTHING.
IM FAT. 'obease' in doctors terms. its unplesant and uncomfortable. I TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT i fucking try, ive done diets, i fucking joined a gym! I WALK EVERYWHERE! yet all that happens is that i get fatter and fatter by the day. ITS GROSE. im so uncomfortable in my body. im ugly and look like a moster from hell. fat fat fat fat faty fat fat fat fat fat f at fat fat . THATS FUCKING RIGHT.
DRUGS...THEY DONT EVEN WORK ANYFUCKINGMORE! weed just dosnt do what it used to do, it dosnt relax me, it dosnt take me to where i used to be. I hate drinking. Acids nearly impossible to get and exspensive and i dont like my brain exploding that often. so i keep trying to smoke and smoke and smoke thinking it will change but it wont. and its not. IM SO FUCKING PISSED OFF. I really hope im pmsing...i really do. I havnt got my period yet...THATS ALL I FUCKING NEED. I hate summer with a passion. WE ARENT EVEN IN SUMMER ANYMORE! its fucking autum and its HOTTER THAN SUMMER. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING BECAUSE ITS SO FUCKING HOT. AND WE DONT HAVE AIRCON BECAUSE WE ARE POOR. SO FUCKING POOR. we have money for nothing. we cant even afford food. we spend 50 dollars a week, if not that! on food..and its all vedgies!A RGH. AND MY COMPUTER IS A PEICE OF SHIT. FUCKING CRAP WHORE BITCH CUNT NOTHING WORKS. fucking msn never works thu the day...i fucking cant stand it. MY LEGS ARE SO FUCKING FAT...theres fat everywhere..everywhere i look on my body is just obese its disgusting. I just want to fucking slice it all off. I HATE IT. MY SKIN IS SO ITCHY. I FUCKING HATE THIS WEATHER. ARGH. does this even HALF explain how fucked off i am?! how SICK OF EVERYTHING I AM?!?! BECUASE I HATE NOTHING AND WILL ACHIVE TO NOTHING!? I cant do anything i have no motivation. NEVER HAVE NEVER WILL SO DONT FUCKING TELL ME ANY DIFFERENT. IF YOU EVEN FUCKING THINK ABOUT COMMENTING WITH SOME CRAP LIKE 'oh cristina! your so great tho! and beautiful!' ILL FUCKING SLICE YOUR THROAT IN YOUR SLEEP BECAUSE IM SICK OF CRAP LIKE THAT BECAUSE ITS ALL FUCKING LIES...MAYBE LIFE IS CRAP?! EVER THOUGHT ABOUT THAT ONE?! MAYBE SOME PEOPLE ARE HERE FOR NO REASON!? WHAT ABOUT THAT!...ahhh type o negative.