new glasses, new lens on career, work-love, and longevity. the transience of everything
i'm thinking about applying to my previous position (events assistant) which was contract and now turned into a union, permanent, full-time position. due date: 13th.
interestingly enough, i've wanted it for so long to be that way but it ended as it was contract and i landed this position for which i love and am committed to the work i do. i moved on and love my current position. after giving info and helping a friend prepare his resume for the job, i'm thinking about throwing my name into the mix. it's so weird, wanting something and working so hard for it and to get to a level of where i'd like to be and preparing and being assertive and taking initiative to improve everyday for it to end.
i took all of what i learned up to that time and applied it to my current work and have learned even more, really quickly, really enjoying the creative and political freedom. will this be frowned upon in a potential return to upper-administration? i wonder what my former colleagues actually think of me.
now that it's a union position, i question whether i really want it if i were to land it. do i want the sense of stability? would i be able to go back to the dynamic of the work-relationship of assistant to my manager?
the pay is great. there'd be benefits. i could make those bigger financial decisions that i often think about and want. i'd be bound to my hometown and the institution like i've been forever. is it what i really want? why am i not all over this and rushing anymore?
probably because i see my job as just on way i express myself and a big part of who i am, but it's not my identity so much anymore.
it means i can take and work with criticism without taking it personally and that i work best on shared values and details and ethics and sense of contributing to some greater universal cause.
but seriously, there's only a few steps to me making a choice:
1. apply myself, learn all of the time.
2. know what i want, negotiate, collaborate. do it.
3. make the decision that feels right to me and i feel committed and excited about.
today, i got my new pair of glasses after atleast 5 years old glasses and lens constantly popping out.
the frames are big and help me see things, i think, a little more clearly.
i'm doing what i love and i'm happy and i feel gratitude for the people in my life. i'm in a good place, always.
interestingly enough, i've wanted it for so long to be that way but it ended as it was contract and i landed this position for which i love and am committed to the work i do. i moved on and love my current position. after giving info and helping a friend prepare his resume for the job, i'm thinking about throwing my name into the mix. it's so weird, wanting something and working so hard for it and to get to a level of where i'd like to be and preparing and being assertive and taking initiative to improve everyday for it to end.
i took all of what i learned up to that time and applied it to my current work and have learned even more, really quickly, really enjoying the creative and political freedom. will this be frowned upon in a potential return to upper-administration? i wonder what my former colleagues actually think of me.
now that it's a union position, i question whether i really want it if i were to land it. do i want the sense of stability? would i be able to go back to the dynamic of the work-relationship of assistant to my manager?
the pay is great. there'd be benefits. i could make those bigger financial decisions that i often think about and want. i'd be bound to my hometown and the institution like i've been forever. is it what i really want? why am i not all over this and rushing anymore?
probably because i see my job as just on way i express myself and a big part of who i am, but it's not my identity so much anymore.
it means i can take and work with criticism without taking it personally and that i work best on shared values and details and ethics and sense of contributing to some greater universal cause.
but seriously, there's only a few steps to me making a choice:
1. apply myself, learn all of the time.
2. know what i want, negotiate, collaborate. do it.
3. make the decision that feels right to me and i feel committed and excited about.
today, i got my new pair of glasses after atleast 5 years old glasses and lens constantly popping out.
the frames are big and help me see things, i think, a little more clearly.
i'm doing what i love and i'm happy and i feel gratitude for the people in my life. i'm in a good place, always.