starting university - being seventeen
This Friday marks a quiet death upon my childhood ways of doing Nothing particularly important.
I start work, a real paying job I plan to keep while I attend university. If i can balance both effeciently then i will be very happy girl. Went to the bank today to deposit money and pick up a deposit slip. The teller was a lady with a very lovely Irish accent. She said "tterrrthy tthree thirty, right?". At first, i thought it was Australian, but i could distinguish , right away when she began to speak. I remember once, it was maybe last year... a man with a thick thick accent ( i think he either said he's from Croatia, or South Africa, i ddunno my geography is bad too.) tried to ask for my number and kept complimenting me. All I did was say hello and smiled. I was at school at the time, and just locking up my bicycle- this was much after school- I had to change my schedule.
The other day I bought for myself the most joyous thing ever for two dollars : a mini xylophone, the size of my hand. I'm starting a collection.
I really want to try fencing, go rockclimbing, try oil painting, be fluent in languages, go to Japan with Kozy and Dan!. Today, I wanted to be a tattoo artist, take photos for National Geographic, delve into some chemistry and psychology - I am surprised i haven't forgotten too much , that I have learned, in chemistry. But i have to seriously work on... because I am awful... Labs and research are my thing.
One thing I am excited about , to go to university, is : the people. Another thing I want to do is propose an art show at a local gallery, by the end of this year, so I hope to meet some new people who can help me and are interested. I also want to do big installations of kinetic sculpture, like Alex Calder and George Heart.
Yesterday or so,
Grocery shopping- saw Rob and smiled but didn't get to say hi. Photos missed : an exquisitely dressed old man waiting for the bus. a navy blue suit, newsboy hat , wonderful patterns , i think some pink. Westfort. Abandonned elevators must. Amazing blue-eyes, boy. Old lady with a really bright pink shirt -amazingly bright colour harmonies- she was picking fruits and vegetables. Fire-trucks and firemen doing equipment checks. Interesting figures and stances. Brick wall- man sitting in wheelchair smoking. Fiery red-haired lady in red hat pushing a baby in cart with sunglasses at library. A very tall dark-haired boy in contrast to a tree of his same height. Neatly arranged packaged meat aisle with mirrors. Sleepy ducks at the harbour. Flock of seagulls on the stones, and docks. Other photos previous, when I went to movies with Ian: little girl, on her right bicycles - she reaches up at the Charlie & Chocolate Factory poster, vintage bicycles, crows - sihloutte and perching - trains,
drawings: portrait of everyone at graduation in the style of The Last Supper, cell phones, zebras at zoo and sister, carousel, first encounters with death (existential themes), portrait of Mike, watercolour skills, pop-up book
I would describe, and like to think - the way experience and learn things, like Rogue of the X-men.
I feel like, i am secure. I am content. I'm not sure what i want to do exactly, but I feel good... it took a very short time for things to turn bittersweet... it took time , which i'm thankful for, to have this feeling that even though things are difficult -it's ok.. It's new, it's better , i'm growing i think. Before, i was having some sort of like middle-age crisis or something(which is awful, since i'm just seventeen) I was just so (worried). I still am. I wanted to 'grow up' to (standards) and i have no idea about that at all, still. Now, i don't want to really grow up. I wanna do anything, and everything...
But for now... i will settle on being bookish and first, understand, thoroughly all the chemistry, physics, biology i have been taught in highschool and keep up with my studies - university. Calculus will just be a bitch. English will be my saving grace.
Then if i have time.... i would specifically like to get a diploma/certificate at the college for floral arrangement, photography, accounting.
I have no idea.
I start work, a real paying job I plan to keep while I attend university. If i can balance both effeciently then i will be very happy girl. Went to the bank today to deposit money and pick up a deposit slip. The teller was a lady with a very lovely Irish accent. She said "tterrrthy tthree thirty, right?". At first, i thought it was Australian, but i could distinguish , right away when she began to speak. I remember once, it was maybe last year... a man with a thick thick accent ( i think he either said he's from Croatia, or South Africa, i ddunno my geography is bad too.) tried to ask for my number and kept complimenting me. All I did was say hello and smiled. I was at school at the time, and just locking up my bicycle- this was much after school- I had to change my schedule.
The other day I bought for myself the most joyous thing ever for two dollars : a mini xylophone, the size of my hand. I'm starting a collection.
I really want to try fencing, go rockclimbing, try oil painting, be fluent in languages, go to Japan with Kozy and Dan!. Today, I wanted to be a tattoo artist, take photos for National Geographic, delve into some chemistry and psychology - I am surprised i haven't forgotten too much , that I have learned, in chemistry. But i have to seriously work on... because I am awful... Labs and research are my thing.
One thing I am excited about , to go to university, is : the people. Another thing I want to do is propose an art show at a local gallery, by the end of this year, so I hope to meet some new people who can help me and are interested. I also want to do big installations of kinetic sculpture, like Alex Calder and George Heart.
Yesterday or so,
Grocery shopping- saw Rob and smiled but didn't get to say hi. Photos missed : an exquisitely dressed old man waiting for the bus. a navy blue suit, newsboy hat , wonderful patterns , i think some pink. Westfort. Abandonned elevators must. Amazing blue-eyes, boy. Old lady with a really bright pink shirt -amazingly bright colour harmonies- she was picking fruits and vegetables. Fire-trucks and firemen doing equipment checks. Interesting figures and stances. Brick wall- man sitting in wheelchair smoking. Fiery red-haired lady in red hat pushing a baby in cart with sunglasses at library. A very tall dark-haired boy in contrast to a tree of his same height. Neatly arranged packaged meat aisle with mirrors. Sleepy ducks at the harbour. Flock of seagulls on the stones, and docks. Other photos previous, when I went to movies with Ian: little girl, on her right bicycles - she reaches up at the Charlie & Chocolate Factory poster, vintage bicycles, crows - sihloutte and perching - trains,
drawings: portrait of everyone at graduation in the style of The Last Supper, cell phones, zebras at zoo and sister, carousel, first encounters with death (existential themes), portrait of Mike, watercolour skills, pop-up book
I would describe, and like to think - the way experience and learn things, like Rogue of the X-men.
I feel like, i am secure. I am content. I'm not sure what i want to do exactly, but I feel good... it took a very short time for things to turn bittersweet... it took time , which i'm thankful for, to have this feeling that even though things are difficult -it's ok.. It's new, it's better , i'm growing i think. Before, i was having some sort of like middle-age crisis or something(which is awful, since i'm just seventeen) I was just so (worried). I still am. I wanted to 'grow up' to (standards) and i have no idea about that at all, still. Now, i don't want to really grow up. I wanna do anything, and everything...
But for now... i will settle on being bookish and first, understand, thoroughly all the chemistry, physics, biology i have been taught in highschool and keep up with my studies - university. Calculus will just be a bitch. English will be my saving grace.
Then if i have time.... i would specifically like to get a diploma/certificate at the college for floral arrangement, photography, accounting.
I have no idea.