Sad
There are people in your life who come and go, and sometimes you don't realize what they meant to you. Someone I care about deeply is going, and well, I am just finally realizing it. I knew since this summer he was moving to Chicago, forever. But it wasn't until I saw him yesterday and he said he was leaving in a week that it hit me. I wish I had seen him more over the years, wish that we hadn't fought before, that we had gone to school closer, and that he wasn't leaving. His though, and I don't want to deal with it. He says he'll visit, and that I can visit, and that it's not that different from being away at college. But this is different, this is his new home and not just another dorm room. I always think about how I want to just get up and leave, that I have plans. But he's the first person ever that I don't want to leave. I'm sad. I wish this hadn't hit me like a ton of bricks. That way at least I could be more happy seeing him off...now I won't, and I'll feel bad for being upset, and then just miss him a lot.
These are the words to the song I have, it seems appropriate. It's by Sarah Mclachlan if you want to download it, it's really beautiful.
The lamp is burnin' low upon my table top
The snow is softly fallin'
The air is still within the silence of my room
I hear your voice softly callin'
If I could only have you near
To breathe a sigh or two
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love
Upon this winter's night with you
The smoke is rising in the shadows overhead
My glass is almost empty
I read again between the lines upon each page
The words of love you sent me
If I could know within my heart
That you were lonely too
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love
Upon this winter's night with you
The fire is dying now, my lamp is growing dim
The shades of night are liftin'
The mornin' light steals across my windowpane
Where webs of snow are driftin'
If I could only have you near
To breathe a sigh or two
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love
And to be once again with with you
To be once again with with you
These are the words to the song I have, it seems appropriate. It's by Sarah Mclachlan if you want to download it, it's really beautiful.
The lamp is burnin' low upon my table top
The snow is softly fallin'
The air is still within the silence of my room
I hear your voice softly callin'
If I could only have you near
To breathe a sigh or two
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love
Upon this winter's night with you
The smoke is rising in the shadows overhead
My glass is almost empty
I read again between the lines upon each page
The words of love you sent me
If I could know within my heart
That you were lonely too
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love
Upon this winter's night with you
The fire is dying now, my lamp is growing dim
The shades of night are liftin'
The mornin' light steals across my windowpane
Where webs of snow are driftin'
If I could only have you near
To breathe a sigh or two
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love
And to be once again with with you
To be once again with with you