Breath....
It has been quite a while since I have written anything... my days go by so quickly I have little time to do anything. But I need to make time for this. It is my one outlet.
I am trying so hard to have a positive outlook on everything but it seem all around me is negative. I love my family and friends but sometimes they are the root of my darkness. Why is it so hard to be supportive and positive? I look at every situation through every angle I may not agree on what is being done or how but for someone it may be the right way. I can only voice my opinion not force my opinion. Some need to realize that.
I am a passive person with a big heart and lots of patience but it is getting to a point where I could care less what anyone thinks and that is not good. Pushing people away has never been me but in this past year I have done just this to some who showed me that they were no longer my friends buts spectators to my life. I don't want you to watch me, I want you to join in my life and enjoy all that is there. If your going to watch and judge at every turn than be on your merry way because this show is over for you.
I am in my own world right now and my happiness is in my hands no one elses. I am setting up for a move that will change my life and looking forward to it...
I am trying so hard to have a positive outlook on everything but it seem all around me is negative. I love my family and friends but sometimes they are the root of my darkness. Why is it so hard to be supportive and positive? I look at every situation through every angle I may not agree on what is being done or how but for someone it may be the right way. I can only voice my opinion not force my opinion. Some need to realize that.
I am a passive person with a big heart and lots of patience but it is getting to a point where I could care less what anyone thinks and that is not good. Pushing people away has never been me but in this past year I have done just this to some who showed me that they were no longer my friends buts spectators to my life. I don't want you to watch me, I want you to join in my life and enjoy all that is there. If your going to watch and judge at every turn than be on your merry way because this show is over for you.
I am in my own world right now and my happiness is in my hands no one elses. I am setting up for a move that will change my life and looking forward to it...