so long
This will be my last entry, because i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do ANYTHING any more. I'm finally steping up and taking control of my life. I'm making decisions, and choosing my own path. i didn't want to do track, my mom and dad wouldn't let me quit, but i did it anyway, because it's my life, and why should i waste it on something i hate? and you know what? they didn't even care! (too much). They know it is my life, so i can make my own decisions, for the most part. I don't feel like i have to be nice to everyone because i'm supposed to, i'm going to be nice to them because i want to be. I'm not going to hang out with the people everyone expects me to, I'm going to hang out with the people i want to, who may or not be the same. I'm not going to be a pawn in anyone's chess game anymore! I'm not going to fall at the knees of all those with more authority than me! They may be older, or have more "power" than me, but that doesn't mean that they have any control over me. i will respect them, only if they respect me.
I need to get out of this town/city. whatever it is. It's begining to get to me. maybe it's my California background, maybe not. It's probably just my differences from this place, and how i am "expected" to do everything i do. even when i try to do something unique, i'm characterized into a group of those "trying to be unique". I know there's a better place, and i know i'm not the only one who needs to leave here and find it. I've finally "found" myself and i'm not in the right place, the right school, the right classes.
I picture everything in Lynchburg to either be pink or yellow, while i picture myself to be a dark green. weird, huh? how everything in the world can be related to colors. time, places, smells. i just need something...and i need it fast.
This has been my weirdest entry...and my last. if any of this has made sense to you, let me know, because... it'd be nice to have another green or blue or purple friend!
"peace out"
AMY
I need to get out of this town/city. whatever it is. It's begining to get to me. maybe it's my California background, maybe not. It's probably just my differences from this place, and how i am "expected" to do everything i do. even when i try to do something unique, i'm characterized into a group of those "trying to be unique". I know there's a better place, and i know i'm not the only one who needs to leave here and find it. I've finally "found" myself and i'm not in the right place, the right school, the right classes.
I picture everything in Lynchburg to either be pink or yellow, while i picture myself to be a dark green. weird, huh? how everything in the world can be related to colors. time, places, smells. i just need something...and i need it fast.
This has been my weirdest entry...and my last. if any of this has made sense to you, let me know, because... it'd be nice to have another green or blue or purple friend!
"peace out"
AMY