(no subject)
Yay..okay im going to update you. on everything..well alot of stuff.
Okay. First and foremost, the most recent thing going on in my life has been this little thing ive been having with someone about my not liking them. She doesnt undersand and i dont think she ever will, i feel bad about this but theres nothing i can do about it....its funny how just about everyone else i explain it to understands perfectly and some-most even agree...but enough with that coz i absolutely hate when people dont specify...so im sorry if you think thats totally gay of me to say ^^ but its my journal so deal with it bitch. but if you DO know what im tatlking about and think im a asshole who just randomly goes around hating people ask me about it and i will tell you because i do have reasons... Whatever. Anyways so the past two days ive gotten that whole deal cleared up and good with alot of people, including jeff...and ALSO in the past few days ive realized things about people....Some you cant trust, some lie, some say things behind their good friend's backs...actually alot of people do. Ive always thought most people sucked but like im especailly seeing now how much even some of the people i was close with before are turning into people i dont even feel like i know anymore...which sucks, because at one time they were really awesome people. I dont know what happened but whatever. i have to say, ive yet to find someone who is perfect in every single aspect of their life so dont go around fucking things up by gossiping about things that not everyone needs to know... fucking gay. unnessicary. ugh. i hate that. ive tried to stay out of peoples way, people shit, peoples problems [besides friends when they need counsoling or what not] but what do i get in return?? jack shit... im not holding this against you though nick, because 1. im trying not to hold any grudges with people anymore coz its not worth my time. 2. i dont feel like doing the whole drama thing that i hate so much..and 3. i know you dont need any more fights or anything in your life right now becuase you tell me everything, now i dont tell anyone the stuff you tell me so i dont know where you got the great idea to go and start drama for me...whatever. im over it now and im actually kind of glad you did it but im still really hurt you would go and be shitty and tell people things i tell you..things not meant for some people to here..but whatever im sorry. im done venting, and im also sorry if that made no sense to some of you im tired, annoyed and i probably just made myself sound really dumb. oh well.
Okay. First and foremost, the most recent thing going on in my life has been this little thing ive been having with someone about my not liking them. She doesnt undersand and i dont think she ever will, i feel bad about this but theres nothing i can do about it....its funny how just about everyone else i explain it to understands perfectly and some-most even agree...but enough with that coz i absolutely hate when people dont specify...so im sorry if you think thats totally gay of me to say ^^ but its my journal so deal with it bitch. but if you DO know what im tatlking about and think im a asshole who just randomly goes around hating people ask me about it and i will tell you because i do have reasons... Whatever. Anyways so the past two days ive gotten that whole deal cleared up and good with alot of people, including jeff...and ALSO in the past few days ive realized things about people....Some you cant trust, some lie, some say things behind their good friend's backs...actually alot of people do. Ive always thought most people sucked but like im especailly seeing now how much even some of the people i was close with before are turning into people i dont even feel like i know anymore...which sucks, because at one time they were really awesome people. I dont know what happened but whatever. i have to say, ive yet to find someone who is perfect in every single aspect of their life so dont go around fucking things up by gossiping about things that not everyone needs to know... fucking gay. unnessicary. ugh. i hate that. ive tried to stay out of peoples way, people shit, peoples problems [besides friends when they need counsoling or what not] but what do i get in return?? jack shit... im not holding this against you though nick, because 1. im trying not to hold any grudges with people anymore coz its not worth my time. 2. i dont feel like doing the whole drama thing that i hate so much..and 3. i know you dont need any more fights or anything in your life right now becuase you tell me everything, now i dont tell anyone the stuff you tell me so i dont know where you got the great idea to go and start drama for me...whatever. im over it now and im actually kind of glad you did it but im still really hurt you would go and be shitty and tell people things i tell you..things not meant for some people to here..but whatever im sorry. im done venting, and im also sorry if that made no sense to some of you im tired, annoyed and i probably just made myself sound really dumb. oh well.