i thought you'd be there holding daisies...you always wait for me
what the hell. i need to learn to shut my damn mouth and stop talking out of my ass. i dont think enough and i talk too much. i feel shitty right now, like im going to puke or something. its not a fun feeling. i dont want anything to happen between us...and especailly over this..im nervous. i try to be so happy and shit all the time and just now im realizing that thats not helping at all, if anything its hurting coz even when im mad or something im always freaking smiling. its pathetic and i need to fucking stop. ugh people suck to the max