Jun 25, 2005 16:45
I want to hate him so fucking bad, but there's just this part of me
that's taking over. And that part wants him. But I know that he will
never want me. I used to ache with lust. Have you ever felt that? It's
a terrible fucking feeling. But now I am aching with a heart smashed
into itty bitty pieces. I'm sure everyone has felt that, at least once.
But me..I've never not felt it. No one has ever helped me fix my heart.
And why should I? It's just going to get broken again. So fixing it
would be utterly useless. And I hate the bitch that did it with him.
What happened to being friends forever? What happened to that rule
among girls, where you don't mess around with the boy your girlfriend
likes, huh? What happened to that? And now I have been re-awared why I
hate girls. They are backstabbing whores. Yes, I know, I am a girl. But
there are many degrees of evil. I am a bitch. But in my opinion, I
would rather be a bitch than a whore. A whore is far worse than a
fucking bitch. But this girl. Well, she is both. Fuck the thought of me
ever having a boyfriend, and the thought of being close to girls. There
are only two girls that I trust with my life, and my trust belongs to
Victoria Griffith and Elizabeth Solano. We all hate those little whores
and we come together so nicely. I am thankful for my two best friends.
They help me stick up for myself, they keep me in line when I'm a
bitch, they calm me down, they comfort me, etc. What friends do. Never
have the messed with the guy I like. To hell with the other girls. To
hell with boys. It's just me and my girls this summer. It's me alone.
But no one said I have to fall in love this summer. So here's to the
boys of summer. Here's to the night. Here's to having good friends.