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Am a bit under the weather, mentally.
Had a friend kill himself a few days ago. Not something I am really capable of dealing with. Just been very out of sorts and confused. Suicide is a hard thing to cope with. I've just wanted to be with people, specifically with people I care about. Being alone has been terrifying. Everybody's been really good and supportive and nice. Even that Ford-Loving Asshole I'm fucking, he's been really nice. Not nice enough to actually see me when I'm afraid to be alone, but shit, that's nothing new.
Got the funeral on Monday, gonna sit around with the boys on Sunday night and have some drinks and pour some out. Hopefully by next week I'll be a bit more composed. I've just been very needy, but I guess that's to be expected.
Here's to a safe journey. *clink*
Had a friend kill himself a few days ago. Not something I am really capable of dealing with. Just been very out of sorts and confused. Suicide is a hard thing to cope with. I've just wanted to be with people, specifically with people I care about. Being alone has been terrifying. Everybody's been really good and supportive and nice. Even that Ford-Loving Asshole I'm fucking, he's been really nice. Not nice enough to actually see me when I'm afraid to be alone, but shit, that's nothing new.
Got the funeral on Monday, gonna sit around with the boys on Sunday night and have some drinks and pour some out. Hopefully by next week I'll be a bit more composed. I've just been very needy, but I guess that's to be expected.
Here's to a safe journey. *clink*