One of my favourite games is guessing what tribe a branded comes from
[First of all, your votes]
x x x x x (weren't enough, will vote for more when they come up~)
[basics]
Name/Alias:Elisabeth/Lin/Barbarian
Age: 21, for one more glorious month
Stamped as: Lyn
I would like:
[ ] a mom and a dad
[ ] two moms
[ ] two dads
[x] anything goes/doesn't matter (though I admit I'd rather have a homosexual couple, no matter the gender. Don't feel pressured though, if you see a guy and a girl, then I won't bitch about it XD)
[about you]
Describe your personality
I'm going to try and not get into the full-blown rant I did on my regular application.
I'm extremely protective, independant to a fault (though there are two people on which I will let myself rely, as this year has proven me), I have a very high ego which will force me to always aim high and never accept half-measure, but a very low self-esteem, which makes me believe I won't reach said goals (this tends to make me freeze in my tracks, or get to work but under tremendous stress, which often has very bad effects on my body)
I love a select few but don't really care about the rest.
i'm a girl but most of my close friends agree that I probably got my chromosomes wrong.
I'm also a pervert, but a nice one. Think Chivalrous Pervert from tvtropes. I'm also extremely loyal.
I tend to be cynical and sarcastic, but it also means I'm often pleasantly surprised by outcomes. I don't trust in humanity (or rather, I trust its stupidity), and don't mingle with people that much, but for my small group of friends I'll do pretty much anything.
One last thing to take into account is the battle lust. It's there, it's strong, and it influences a lot of other things in my life (yes, even sexuality). Some days I feel like the veterans who come home and can't adapt to civilian life.
What do you like the most about yourself? My loyalty, I think. I'll never betray someone I care for. Also, to be honest, I rather like my brains. And the fact that my many years of consciously forging my personality have allowed me to reduce my aggressivity a lot.
What would you rather change about your personality? I wish I was less caustic, and had higher self-esteem. I tend to flee from things rather than fight when it comes to important stuff, and I hate that, especially considering that when it's something I can actually fight for, I will fight.
Also, I wish my mind was less in the gutter.
[meeting the parents]
Describe the relation you have with your parents giving as many details as you feel comfortable with: Now I think back, I've really been the boy of the family. As in, the eldest boy.My mum is very affectionate and caring, but most of the time it makes me feel awkward, because I've never been an affectionate and touchy-feely person. (this is also a big problem with my brother because he's constantly trying to get affectionate behaviour out of me and it just makes me cringe. I love him but I can't act that way.) I love her, but I can't really relate. Every now and then we'll find common ground on which to bound, but more often than not we just live in separate words.
I'm much closer to my dad, for all we interact less. I've always been asking him questions, thinking with him (as in using my brains), following him around for concerts, etc. We speak a lot, we have the same sense of humor (usually it's one that has several levels, and can be thick with double-entendre, though it's not always the case), the same opinions on a lot of things. He's also much more accepting of my perverted mind and sense of humor (my mum isn't against it per se, but she seems less comfortable with it). He treats me like an adult, has done so for several years. He's also the one I came out to -I can't find a good time to tell my mum because she's always on her computer or in front of the tv when I want to. The one thing we don't agree on is that he seems to be expecting me to be more financially idependant right now (I'm getting dangerously close to the age he was when I was born), even though I've been trying to explain to him that the circumstances have changed and that young people work less than when he was my age, and that with the university and lab I can't have a regular job. It's a recurrent subject of disagreement.
Mostly my parents have been awesome in the sense that they've left me and my siblings (but mostly me: my little sis is five and my bro needs more looking after since he's such a dreamer, and more of a liar than I am) a lot of independance. Basically, they were behind me to make sure I didn't screw up big time, but they trust me and show it. This means that I've been allowed to try things, make my own mistakes, and learn, and that I've never felt the need to build myself in opposition to them or their opinion. And to be honest? Knowing my personality, it was the best they could have done. I'm too independant intelectually-wise to follow a lead.
One other major point in which they've been awesome is sexuality. I was give what I needed to understand as soon as I started questions, which means that by the time puberty came to knock, I was both well informed and totally unbothered. It honestly saved me a lot of drama. Additionally, the household has always been very gay-friendly (my bro's godfather is gay, among other things), and they've NEVER tried to push the heterosexual stereotype on me. Or gender stereotypes as a whole. I was a real tomboy when I was younger, and while other people in the family have tried to give me dolls, they bought me the toy cars I craved. (even used them as grade blackmail XD). As a result, I didn't go through an existencial angst when I found out I was bi, and neither me nor my brother have felt forced to follow a gender stereotype. (amusingly, my bro is as girly as I am manly. It's kinda hilarious)
On the BAD side, my parents (and my dad especially) tend to take things out on me when thigns aren't good, especially between them. Since my dad treats me like an adult he tends to rant to me (which is ok), but he also tends to just rage at me for no particular reasons, or old and burried arguments that had been forgotten for months, just because he can't take it out on her. I don't really appreciate that. Also, he does it on me a lot more than he does on my brother.
Would you change anything of this relation? The last part I mentioned. The rest is pretty cool.
Do you see yourself moving to a faraway place or do you like to be close to your family? I'm moving to another continent for a year in august. it hink it's necessary, because i've always lived with them, and it's time to force myself to cut the string a bit. Once I've built myself alone, I'll see whether I want to come back or not. Mostly I'd like being close to my siblings and grandparents, more than my parents. My youngest sis is only five, and my bro is becoming a teenager and he'll need me, I think, especially since he seems to have orientation issues too.
What qualities do you think make an ideal parent? Understanding, trust, and self-esteem. You can't teach self-esteem to your kids if you don't have it yourself. It doesn't have to be strong, but it's got to be there. Also, letting kids see things for themselves. EXPLAIN why something is wrong rather than saying "don't do it". Kids are not stupid, they can understand. Getting something forbidden without knowing why just makes you want to do it.
What do you think a (good) parent should never do? Hurt their child. This can come in many ways (not accepting them for who they are trying to push something on them, physically hurting them, rejecting them, etc), but it's never acceptable. Children are supposed to be the fruit of love, they should get this love in return.
What do you think is worse: over-protectiveness or giving too much freedom to the kids? Overprotectiveness. I've been given a lot of freedom and it went pretty well. If you'd tried to smother me I'd probably have ended up very aggressive and rebellious. The point in my opinion is to give freedom but also give the information. Tell your kids in detail about the dangers and let them deal with it themselves. When you think you're on your own, you think twice before doing something dangerous.
[the world of Fire Emblem]
Describe the childhood you’ll like to have in this kind of world: I'd like to say I'd have appreciated being in a nice cosy village, daughter of a merchant or something. I'd like that. But it'd never work.
I've always been a warrior at heart, and so if you want me to fit, there'll have to be at least some training, even as a child. Be it magic or be it physical fighting, I'd need a family where from a young age, you're supposed to learn to defend yourself. So it could be something like the Greil Mercenaries, where you have to learn because it's your job, or a noble/royal house, but there has to be some kind of training.
I kinda like the idea of growing either within a group or within range of one. To have people to talk to and learn from.
Finally, I'd rather not have too hot a country, please. My body and brain shut down in the heat.
Do you see yourself following the family business or going your own path? Hum, it could be either way depending on the business. I'm independant, but if the job's something I want to do, then why not. But I'd probably go learn it somewhere else before coming back to take it. Learn more things that way.
A war is about to start: your parent wants to support one of the countries, but you think that’s a mistake. What do you do? I'd probably try to persuade them. To be honest, I rarely care for causes. I'd rather stay home and fight to protect those dear to me. As parents, I'd expect them to do the same. I'd probably try to convince them to stay at home and care for their other children if there are any and go in the stead or something.
Your best friend is in trouble and needs you! Your parent thinks you shouldn’t get involved, do you still go to help even if that means having a big argument with your parent? I'll go. I'll always defend a true friend. I probably wouldn't even really argue. if they don't agree, I wouldn't waste time trying to convince them. I'd shut up and go.
Like it happens to every good hero, your parent is tragically killed. Do you search for revenge or try to move on?
Good question. Very good question. See, this depends a lot on my inability to really hate someone.
In the heat of the moment, I might seek revenge, and it might be bloody. But after I've calmed down I wouldn't try. I'd still miss them but revenge is useless.
However I'd probably try to find the person if only to keep him/her from hurting others.
Anything else you’d like to share?
Sorry for the rants. I guess the issue of parenting is an important one for me XD