Teach me gently how to breathe
Last night was an intoxicated blur of feeling alone in a crowded room, sappy songs and having my feelings on display. Ended up seeking comfort in conversation with a stranger in my semi-sober state after getting home, and crying on the phone at 2 a.m. Perhaps I really am messed up, as I've been told. So the question now is, when will I learn? I think it's time to swear off alcohol for now and focus on getting my life back on track.
It has been a fragile past few days, where any spare moment alone with my thoughts was enough to make me crumble into a teary mess. Slept most of today away, and decided to seek comfort at home over the next couple of days. Got to learn to be okay on my own. After all, it was my decision to let this go.
Gotta start working on things soon. That aside, I think I might travel to the other side of the country tomorrow, or maybe get on a random bus and let it take me wherever.