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Well, I've got a lot of REALLY personal stuff that I want to say, but I can't, because everyone will read this. It's not bad...For everyone at least, but I'm nervous. This is a place where I should be able to write anything that goes through my mind, but people read it, so it's not very personal. I just wish I could get up the nerve to say what I want to say. I can't, though. All of this stuff with Whitley has brought my self-esteem down so much. I don't think I can take any more rejection. Besides, my emotions are definitely carrying themselves way too far and too fast. Sure, I've known this person for a while, but... Not in that way. It's totally different. Besides, I doubt she wants me anyways. I'm still kinda stuck on Whitley, but it's gotten to the point where a new love, or even just someone to hold onto, would help me. I feel so lonely and nothing I do seems to matter. I just have so much trouble being happy, no matter how hard I try. How is it that No Doubt is stuck in my head, again. Oh well. Dimmu Borgir should help... There we go. I love this song... Even more than No Doubt. In truth, I just don't feel like happy music, right now.