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I feel like I am too old for this crap. And actually I am really way to old for this. But Its just that I was reading an old online journal I used to had, and it was unrecognizable. The stuff I said. I dunno, I can't believe that was me, but it was. And no matter how hard I try to distance myself from that person, its still right there in the back of my head. I sometimes wondered what it would like to be in that mindset again, and I asked someone about it and they said to me, "well it probably wasn't that bad if you want to go back to it". And I don't feel like that is necessarily true, I feel as though I need to go back to that, but that would stupid of me. Why would I knowingly go back to that? I feel like my brain is so infected and so full of things I just don't remember. I don't feel like I am a real person.