"No Allison, theres not supposed to be a negative side to this list... thats defeating the point"
Okay, so today was pretty much a big waste of time. I woke up at like
11:30, for the second time, the first time being at 7:15 when my aunt
called to tell us that my Dziadzi's (grandpa) in the hospital and is
going to have surgery. So I might have to go to Connecticut sometime
this week if my dad ends up going out there. Maybe, maybe not.
Anyway, so I had nothing to do today. So what did I do? I thought a lot. And all I can come up with so far is negative things that ultimately ended up putting me down and making me angry. So I guess you could say that I'm in less than the best mood. Erin helped though. We talked a bit and I swear shes the cheesiest person I know. We ended up making a "positive things" list. It was mostly her saying nice things about me and me attempting to and then contradicting myself and turning it into something negative. When did I become this negative? Oh well. Randy also helped with it by interjecting with things like "Your foot doesn't have leprosy!" So I guess that was good for a laugh.
I guess that helped a bit. I'm not going to go into detail what I was angery about, but I will say that it pretty much stemed from a lot of my friends and I'm thinking of taking some time off from some of them because I just need a break from everything.
Summer needs to brighten up. It doesnt help that my parents keep telling me to get out of the house more often, but wait, with babysitting twice a week and the other 3 days not having rides to go anywhere or do anything, I'm not really seeing much opportunity to get out during the week. Weekends are fine, but thats two days a week. And I'm lacking in productive things to be doing at home. I cleaned my room today. Thats when you know that theres really nothing to do. When my room is clean. So basically I have to option of: a) computer, b) TV, c) a walk by myself, doing nothing because no one lives in the area, and if they do, chances are they have to way of getting to my house either. Then theres always d) get a job. But I have no way of getting to a job, so I dont know how that could possibly work. Maybe if I had a bike. Oh wait, that broke 4 years ago. So I guess just bring on the summer.
Anyway, so I had nothing to do today. So what did I do? I thought a lot. And all I can come up with so far is negative things that ultimately ended up putting me down and making me angry. So I guess you could say that I'm in less than the best mood. Erin helped though. We talked a bit and I swear shes the cheesiest person I know. We ended up making a "positive things" list. It was mostly her saying nice things about me and me attempting to and then contradicting myself and turning it into something negative. When did I become this negative? Oh well. Randy also helped with it by interjecting with things like "Your foot doesn't have leprosy!" So I guess that was good for a laugh.
I guess that helped a bit. I'm not going to go into detail what I was angery about, but I will say that it pretty much stemed from a lot of my friends and I'm thinking of taking some time off from some of them because I just need a break from everything.
Summer needs to brighten up. It doesnt help that my parents keep telling me to get out of the house more often, but wait, with babysitting twice a week and the other 3 days not having rides to go anywhere or do anything, I'm not really seeing much opportunity to get out during the week. Weekends are fine, but thats two days a week. And I'm lacking in productive things to be doing at home. I cleaned my room today. Thats when you know that theres really nothing to do. When my room is clean. So basically I have to option of: a) computer, b) TV, c) a walk by myself, doing nothing because no one lives in the area, and if they do, chances are they have to way of getting to my house either. Then theres always d) get a job. But I have no way of getting to a job, so I dont know how that could possibly work. Maybe if I had a bike. Oh wait, that broke 4 years ago. So I guess just bring on the summer.