[091]
This feeling wont go away. I don't know where to sort it out or how to.
The more important things have been dealt with. When I return, my memory - if lost - will be re awoken. That's fine. Things are going well on that aspect. I'll make plans for Usagi to split the Kyuubi from Naruto soon. He'll have time to regain strength here. We'll seal the Kyuubi. That type of change will remain in tact - so he'll return home as human, as he should have remained. As for Sakura who has returned - a different one, no doubt. I have no intentions concerning her.
Its...
Yuuko's gone. Has been gone for awhile now. I really might have loved her. I can't tell and it doesn't matter anyway. I don't know this feeling, or maybe I do. Betrayal. Yes, its striking a familiar cord but its different. A different kind. One that... I wasn't prepared for. I know that wasn't what it was, but it sure fucking feels like it. Its never happened before, I don't know how to react to it. Just.. don't react? Will it heal on its own over time. Time has never healed a damn thing for me. I kind of want to find her somehow and tell her to fucking fix me because its her god damn fault I feel this way. And she should have never done that if things weren't that way and I don't give a damn what her reasons were. If she was so clearly a mind reader she should have known. The idea of being used...
...
How juvenile. I feel sickened almost. Anyway..
I just don't know anymore. this place is redundant and stagnant and only so much can be done for the greater of the compound itself. It's so unproductive here. Once I've finished all of my plans for returning, where do I go from there? They are, more or less, complete.
The past has been obliterated. All I have now is the future.
But what do I do in between...