todayyyy
Heyyyy,
Yep, thats right, im back again, i decided this is going to be my version of a diary...so try and write everyday...so yea,
Woke up at lyk 10.15ish today and thought i would try and be positive today so, instead of thinkin omg i hav no time, i told myself i hav all day, and it workd. i did some revision at lyk half 10, tho got bored and didnt do much. stopping at bout 12ish. then we went to the yard, its good now we hav sold cleo cos we are more focused on fergie me thinks. anyhow, god it take my family ages to do anything. we started gettin ready to go at bout 12, and didnt leave until 1ish! for gods sake!!! ahhh, so annoying, so yea havin wasted time hanging around we went. got there, mucked out nd groomed etc, abi nd i were gettin on surprisingly well! *shock horror* she evensaid it was good to share a horse with your sister, i was tres surprised. so yea, then we tacked up nd that, bt of course, predictably douglas wanted to use the school and so i had to wait. then he had another horse so it was kinda an i dont want to ride anymore situation cos im crap at ridin atm nd didnt want to ride infront of him cos yea...ah im so bad. bt yea abi rode instead then we swapped halfway through. ahh, he's so unfit, no jokes. he wont actually walk forwards atm, nd can hardly trot around corners, its embarasiin, so yea abi nd i both got stresed bout that which was pissy. then we went on a hack nd that was k, apart from the fact we were havin a go at each other. then we truned round to head back to the yard, and bloody hell, what did he do?! walk vaguely speedily! so unfair. got back nd then mum came to pick us up. ooo stopped at the barn shop on the way back and got a new bridle...the next size up (full) cos the the cob one was too small. wen we got home i did some more revision..tho hardly any, had tea and yea thats bout it really. mum has gone to norfolk, avec that noel guy me thinks. well i heard someone talkin in the kitchen - i was in my room - nd then she left, im assuming that was him. she left at lyk 5, bah i dnt relly no why she went, 'she needs to get away' *sigh* u know one of the reasons i didnt go out last night was cos i didnt want to ask her to take me all the way to haverhill then come back to pick me up again. it would giv her more to complain about, she went to bed at half eight last night! if i had gone she would hav had to wait up til lyk 12ish =( it was kinda deja vu of half term last summer, where i was invited to another party that i kinda wanted to go to bt then couldnt cos mum went out and didnt tell us where she was goin and didnt take her fone...she went at lyk 1 in the afternoon and didnt get bk until 8.30 ish. i was kinda upset then. missed opportunities and all that. hmm yea im rambling again, complainin again, no surprises.
she headed off to norfolk then, abi started puttin the bridle back together, i did some more bio, tho progress is so incredibly slow. i hav so much to do, why do i always have loads but no one else does?! i dnt get it, and i still manage to mess up my work anyway... it all points to what i was sayin last night....*dreams again*
then mel rang, which was good, havnt talked to her in ages, she went to lisas partay last night. it sounds lyk it was relly good =( i wish i could hav gone. i wanted to go to that one more than i wanted to go to emilys =( lucy, sanna, and mel all went to that one. bt yea, mel wants me to go to the waitrose xmas party...nt convinced i will go tho, i will b such a loser, i dnt hav friends at waitrose, the people i work with are all adults, it would b weird me tinks. anyhow mel seemed ok, better than she has been =) nd she was tlkin bout d of e...yayness, i luv dofe, apart from wen i realise that someone i dislike is in my group. ahh, now i hav to worry about gettin on with her....sigh.
i want to go skiin at christmas, i hav real skiin deprivation, i love it soo much. i dnt think we will go this year, money and all that. plus i probs wont get the time off from work =( i was sayin to mel about how this is our life pretty mcuh set from now on. work, not much holiday, lack of time, every action that we do now, will hav an impact on us later...we hav to work now to go to uni, we hav to go to uni to get a decent job, we hav to work after uni to pay off our debts. the next break we will get is wen we are 60...so brace yourself everyone, this is only the beginning! its a bit depressing isnt it, i read this thing the other day...the way you know that your gettin old is wen u hav reduced holidays nd that..there was a list of stuff, that was one of them. hmm, i wish life wasnt like this...
it was four months for tom and i yesterday. im kinda impressed, thats a third of a year....bt yea still we will see what happens, i never hold my breath...especially not at the moment.
lastly, cos i really should go. im such a hypocrite u know, lol i could list why bt im nt goin to. there was another party tonight, i wanted to go to it, bt i dnt know at the time i thought i would feel out of place there and also, this whole cloud of havin work to do hangin over me made me reluctant, plus hav work first thing 2mo mornin and lastly, mums out again tonight....
anyhow, thats all for now,
xoxoxox
Yep, thats right, im back again, i decided this is going to be my version of a diary...so try and write everyday...so yea,
Woke up at lyk 10.15ish today and thought i would try and be positive today so, instead of thinkin omg i hav no time, i told myself i hav all day, and it workd. i did some revision at lyk half 10, tho got bored and didnt do much. stopping at bout 12ish. then we went to the yard, its good now we hav sold cleo cos we are more focused on fergie me thinks. anyhow, god it take my family ages to do anything. we started gettin ready to go at bout 12, and didnt leave until 1ish! for gods sake!!! ahhh, so annoying, so yea havin wasted time hanging around we went. got there, mucked out nd groomed etc, abi nd i were gettin on surprisingly well! *shock horror* she evensaid it was good to share a horse with your sister, i was tres surprised. so yea, then we tacked up nd that, bt of course, predictably douglas wanted to use the school and so i had to wait. then he had another horse so it was kinda an i dont want to ride anymore situation cos im crap at ridin atm nd didnt want to ride infront of him cos yea...ah im so bad. bt yea abi rode instead then we swapped halfway through. ahh, he's so unfit, no jokes. he wont actually walk forwards atm, nd can hardly trot around corners, its embarasiin, so yea abi nd i both got stresed bout that which was pissy. then we went on a hack nd that was k, apart from the fact we were havin a go at each other. then we truned round to head back to the yard, and bloody hell, what did he do?! walk vaguely speedily! so unfair. got back nd then mum came to pick us up. ooo stopped at the barn shop on the way back and got a new bridle...the next size up (full) cos the the cob one was too small. wen we got home i did some more revision..tho hardly any, had tea and yea thats bout it really. mum has gone to norfolk, avec that noel guy me thinks. well i heard someone talkin in the kitchen - i was in my room - nd then she left, im assuming that was him. she left at lyk 5, bah i dnt relly no why she went, 'she needs to get away' *sigh* u know one of the reasons i didnt go out last night was cos i didnt want to ask her to take me all the way to haverhill then come back to pick me up again. it would giv her more to complain about, she went to bed at half eight last night! if i had gone she would hav had to wait up til lyk 12ish =( it was kinda deja vu of half term last summer, where i was invited to another party that i kinda wanted to go to bt then couldnt cos mum went out and didnt tell us where she was goin and didnt take her fone...she went at lyk 1 in the afternoon and didnt get bk until 8.30 ish. i was kinda upset then. missed opportunities and all that. hmm yea im rambling again, complainin again, no surprises.
she headed off to norfolk then, abi started puttin the bridle back together, i did some more bio, tho progress is so incredibly slow. i hav so much to do, why do i always have loads but no one else does?! i dnt get it, and i still manage to mess up my work anyway... it all points to what i was sayin last night....*dreams again*
then mel rang, which was good, havnt talked to her in ages, she went to lisas partay last night. it sounds lyk it was relly good =( i wish i could hav gone. i wanted to go to that one more than i wanted to go to emilys =( lucy, sanna, and mel all went to that one. bt yea, mel wants me to go to the waitrose xmas party...nt convinced i will go tho, i will b such a loser, i dnt hav friends at waitrose, the people i work with are all adults, it would b weird me tinks. anyhow mel seemed ok, better than she has been =) nd she was tlkin bout d of e...yayness, i luv dofe, apart from wen i realise that someone i dislike is in my group. ahh, now i hav to worry about gettin on with her....sigh.
i want to go skiin at christmas, i hav real skiin deprivation, i love it soo much. i dnt think we will go this year, money and all that. plus i probs wont get the time off from work =( i was sayin to mel about how this is our life pretty mcuh set from now on. work, not much holiday, lack of time, every action that we do now, will hav an impact on us later...we hav to work now to go to uni, we hav to go to uni to get a decent job, we hav to work after uni to pay off our debts. the next break we will get is wen we are 60...so brace yourself everyone, this is only the beginning! its a bit depressing isnt it, i read this thing the other day...the way you know that your gettin old is wen u hav reduced holidays nd that..there was a list of stuff, that was one of them. hmm, i wish life wasnt like this...
it was four months for tom and i yesterday. im kinda impressed, thats a third of a year....bt yea still we will see what happens, i never hold my breath...especially not at the moment.
lastly, cos i really should go. im such a hypocrite u know, lol i could list why bt im nt goin to. there was another party tonight, i wanted to go to it, bt i dnt know at the time i thought i would feel out of place there and also, this whole cloud of havin work to do hangin over me made me reluctant, plus hav work first thing 2mo mornin and lastly, mums out again tonight....
anyhow, thats all for now,
xoxoxox