RUINED
All my good work over the last few days RUINED because I couldn't control myself. At around 8pm I ate enough food to feed a small city for a month. Why? I have NO IDEA! Self sabotague (sp?) maybe? All I know is now my throat hurts and I know I will have a really sore gut in the morning from all the laxitives I have just downed. I feel bloated and miserable. Some people warned me this binge would happen. Why did I have to proove their theory right? Why can't I just stick to this and let the weight fall off?
I am not going away with my friend for the weekend as she is sick and I need to think about what I've done and get back on track. I talked to my partner before and he is so disappointed with me for eating, he started telling me what I SHOULD do. I know he's sick of me and my state of obesity and he just wants me to be thin too. If I can't do it for me then why can't I do it for him? Sh|t, its late I gotta go bed.
Em x
I am not going away with my friend for the weekend as she is sick and I need to think about what I've done and get back on track. I talked to my partner before and he is so disappointed with me for eating, he started telling me what I SHOULD do. I know he's sick of me and my state of obesity and he just wants me to be thin too. If I can't do it for me then why can't I do it for him? Sh|t, its late I gotta go bed.
Em x