There goes my pain there goes my chains...because this feeling it has no meaning
well. here i am. disgustingly bored...as always.....
arron said he'd get online tonight cuz he had something to tell me. liar.
i'm glad i survived this weekend. it was better than last time. he was less of a jerk this weekend. still a jerk. just less so. more immature and overly and unneccessarily weird. but oh well. i flirted with guys right in front of him. and i liked it. eat that loser who left me. you screwed yourself over. i'm too good for you anyways. i always was. i just didn't see that till you showed me what a loser you really are. i can do so much better. and you can't. so there. enjoy life with your guitar and gay-boy green striped sweater in oklahoma where you know in your heart isn't really where you want to be. i'll enjoy my life as the same person i was before and while i was with you because i know i don't need to change just cuz my love interest changed and going to one of the two schools i've always wanted to go to and being the person i was made to be, not the person i'm forcing myself to be. sucks for you doesn't it? though i am glad you got your local minister's license. at least you are doing something that you want to. better something than nothing right? i just hope you find happiness. dont keep screwing up like you did before.
k yeah sorry i had some major venting to do......
on a happier note...PT LOMA GAVE ME $11,000!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! $20,000 more to go!
i wish i knew myself better. knew what i really wanted better. knew what God wanted better.
I'm really screwed up.....i should do something about that. but i don't know what to do....so here i am.
on with life such as it is....
arron said he'd get online tonight cuz he had something to tell me. liar.
i'm glad i survived this weekend. it was better than last time. he was less of a jerk this weekend. still a jerk. just less so. more immature and overly and unneccessarily weird. but oh well. i flirted with guys right in front of him. and i liked it. eat that loser who left me. you screwed yourself over. i'm too good for you anyways. i always was. i just didn't see that till you showed me what a loser you really are. i can do so much better. and you can't. so there. enjoy life with your guitar and gay-boy green striped sweater in oklahoma where you know in your heart isn't really where you want to be. i'll enjoy my life as the same person i was before and while i was with you because i know i don't need to change just cuz my love interest changed and going to one of the two schools i've always wanted to go to and being the person i was made to be, not the person i'm forcing myself to be. sucks for you doesn't it? though i am glad you got your local minister's license. at least you are doing something that you want to. better something than nothing right? i just hope you find happiness. dont keep screwing up like you did before.
k yeah sorry i had some major venting to do......
on a happier note...PT LOMA GAVE ME $11,000!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! $20,000 more to go!
i wish i knew myself better. knew what i really wanted better. knew what God wanted better.
I'm really screwed up.....i should do something about that. but i don't know what to do....so here i am.
on with life such as it is....