ughhh

[em1421]

i know it's coming on again, i can feel it. im scared, im upset, and everytime i try to take a step back from all the stress i just end up...thinking about it. how can you turn your brain off? i feel like every time i try to do myself a favor and get away, i either freak out about how off task i am or overanalyze everything in an attempt to think my way out of it...and then just get more upset. i cant relive last semester, i cant do it. i know part of the stress right now probably comes from this fucking summer class. if i cant handle physics 2 without wanting to throw my computer against a wall during every homework assignment, how the hell am i supposed to get through medical school? maybe im not cut out for this shit.

whoever thought electric fields had a damn thing to do with being a "good doctor" needs to get hit in the head, really really hard.

and doesnt deserve a good doctor to fix him.