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Alright, so, I need someone to answer this for me honestly, because I have no idea:
When did I become such a selfish, cynical, cold-hearted bitch?
I'm looking through old notes and stuff I've kept for the last 10 years, and I really can't figure it out.
When did everything seem so confusing? When did I start to not be able to recognize myself? When did I begin to think that it would be a good idea to start to push people further and further away from me?
When will it all end?
[edit: 9:32p] Looking at all this old stuff has made me realize that dating Chris and him CRUSHING me isn't what made me a horrible person. I always pushed people away. Andy, Marcus, Greg... Will I ever let myself be happy?
Alright, these rhetorical questions that sound like they're coming from the mouth of a teenager... that's enough.
When did I become such a selfish, cynical, cold-hearted bitch?
I'm looking through old notes and stuff I've kept for the last 10 years, and I really can't figure it out.
When did everything seem so confusing? When did I start to not be able to recognize myself? When did I begin to think that it would be a good idea to start to push people further and further away from me?
When will it all end?
[edit: 9:32p] Looking at all this old stuff has made me realize that dating Chris and him CRUSHING me isn't what made me a horrible person. I always pushed people away. Andy, Marcus, Greg... Will I ever let myself be happy?
Alright, these rhetorical questions that sound like they're coming from the mouth of a teenager... that's enough.