Jul 05, 2004 04:05
Ok..so i woke up this morning feeling totally outta place and like total shit. but of course..beings the NICE person that i am i kinda shrugged it off and went on with my day..i talk to chris for a good hour..or 2..about..absolutly nothing in particular..i lay down n watch a movie with my bro..shower...Ali calls me to hang out..and it was cool i was like sure..ya knO? i havent hung out with her ina LONG time..and it wasnt bad ..i actually think ima hang out with her more. she taught me how to take an actual shot w/ lime and salt. it was interesting. ok..anyways..so we go to Cynthias apt and watched fireworks..and of course i thought of Chris so i called him and he was kind of an ass but i shrugged it off and went on..once again knowingg that i truely felt like shit..but its ok..anyways me and christopher and cynthia and ali were having a grando time..looking at pics..being stupid..drinking water lol..anyways..after the highschool was done doing there firework show..we all went back to my house and my dad did his little firework show..it was kinda lame, but i got to blow up shit so it was okay. burned my hand...and my dad got us all wet with the hose. so i poured beer on him hehe.he was mad. but anyways..soo we start drinkin..1 tequila 2 tequila..3 tequila! and a beer!! lol..so i was pretty fucked lol..i was like stumbling around and i called my friend chris again and he hung up on me cuz i was drunk and he doesnt like talking to people when their drunk or whatever i dont know.. so i dusted it off my shoulder..and i kept spinning around and being stupid..and kc and jed showed up and were being stupid with me..and i got pantsed and i was running down the street in my underwear.lamenesss lol..atleast i wasnt wearing a thong! i woulda been hella pissed.. so i called Stevo and was talking to him for awhile..and of course..he was making me hella jealous..flirting and spitting game (cuz he knowz i have a crush on him),yeaa lol so i talked to him for awhile..and i got online and i was talking ta ali cuz she didnt leave and she stayed the night..and i was just talking to her about everything..and everything just kinda..came down HARD on me and i started crying..i was like wow.. and me and ali hadda kodak moment or whatever. but anyways...so chris calls me drunk/buzzed or whatever and i dont pick up and he texted me and it was like whatever onccee again..3 strikes! bam! and it all broke out! and i called him and we talked and got hella into it and i was being an asshole for the way he treated me today and i more then spit it in his face i mean..i was soo harsh it was kinda sad..and unappealing i was just an asshole..and now i feel really bad about it cuz i mean..i didnt mean it to hurt him and i did. wasnt my intention and that sucks..i dunno ive only known the guy for like 2 weeks but like in those 2 weeks ive gotten to know him like no other..kinda odd lol.hes an awesome guy and we have a great friendship that i really dont want to lose because i just dont.blah..i dunno..thats bugging me really bad right now...
ON the plus side tho! ok ok on the SUPER plus side!! Best Interest is SOOOO coming to Lancaster on the 22ndd! and With who? what...whatt? i didnt hear that nicole..can you say it alittle louder..BREAK THE SKY bitches!!! hehehe the coolest guys ever. hehe i saw a pic of stevo and the rest of them..stevo is fucking hot..mmm lol hes yummy lol..hes probably gonna read this and be like wtf..lol its ok tho..hehe anyways well that was the PLUS in my day! w00t !!
but yeah! lol i dont know i kinda need to think everything thru..everythings just been bugging the crap outta me lately..its prolly cuz im on my period and everything is like..100 times worse then what it needs to be! whatever it'll fade so im not tripping..well im sobering up so im gonna go!! much luv
NiCoLeY