"tell all my freinds I'd rather die than run away"-AOF
well wow..this has been an interesting part of my summer...lets see..lets startt with....summer school!! ive been going to summer school for the past couple of weeks..for biology because i was supposed to have 2 classes but i dropped english cuz my teacher kinda scared me...and like i just couldnt do 2 classes..my brain was incapable of doing that..soo ive been doing one class..i guess its not that bad..i have like 3 or 4 people that i know in that class so its not that bad...and mrs.hoover is cool shes been like...really nice..we have a report/project thing due on tuesday due tho.blah looks like i gotta start working on it or ima be screwed!! lol..soo i mean thats going okay atleast ima be getting those credits and not have to worry about them next year..but i dunno if ima be going to phs next year anyway my parents wanna put me like on independant study or something to see how that goes for awhile..cuz i hate people but thats another story..
aside from that...my cousins been here for the past couple of days..he left this morning..it was cool..hanging out with my cousin.. me and him are really close..soo its kinda cool..:) i hardly ever see him because he lives in northridge but seeing him was really awesome..i hung out with him and a shitload of people last night...it was cool..we went to taco bell to eat cuz me, cindy and kim were hungry soo brandon was like okay lets to get sum chili cheese dogs..but weinershiznal was closed lol cuz it was like 12..soo..we went to taco bell instead lol it was cool..we got back to shanes house and he was all over this girl sam..shes okay i mean..i dunno..me and shane had sum weird thing goin on but its been done cuz mike kinda freaked me out by telling me sum bull shit that my cousin was gonna like slit his throat if he touched me so i kinda got scared and stopped talking to him..he didnt even acknowlegde my existance but its like whatever...
ohh i should probably tell anyone who actually reads this shit about the bull shit thats been going on w/ me and steve and mike and cynthia and this guy named andrew..okayyy so me and andrew have had classes together for the last 2 years..he was always really nice to me until he started hanging out with steve and mike..which was like whatever..soo the other night i was walking with kc and jed and steve and mike and andrew were like down the street..and steve started like..coughing n was like ahhh jew!! like pretending to sneeze..it was like wow how immature can you be? i just kinda blew it off like whatever, but like an hour or 2 before me and mike got into a huuge ass fight because like...he was talking mad shit about me to cynthia and she told me cuz it was only the right thing to do..and the shit he said about me was like omgg..soo horrible that i wont even disclose any of it cuz it just sucked and was a shit load of bull shit...and apparently..cindy misunderstood what i said and told mike i called him fat which i didnt..and i already told mike that but whatever..and me and him just arent talking anymore..cuz thats gay..im not gonna be friends with someone who talks that much shit about me n the sad part was after he talked all that shit about me the next day we hung out and he was all buddy buddy with me..:( whatever ya know? mike was my like bestfriend..i told the guy almost everything i was feeling and i really thought he undertsood but i guess it was just like an act or whatever and well andrew kept calling me and like..steve would be yelling shit in the back and andrew kept calling me a fat jew and shit..omg..i was soo pissed..i started crying and i was on the fone with my friend chris..(cool guy) and i just lost it..i was bawling my eyes out and cynthia called mike and was like wtf ya kno? leave her alone she didnt say anything to you guys and blah blah and of course it didnt make anything better..and then andrew started talking shit about cynthia and all this bull shit broke out..it sucks..whatever its done and im not gonna like..bitch or make it anymore of a big deal cuz it blew up pretty big last night and i dont want it to be anymore of a big deal. so..as for that..its done..
myy friend chris went to warp tour yesterday!!! lucky bastard!! lol.hes so cool tho..yeaahh but speaking of warp tour im supposed to go on july 7th!! lol hehehe..i need like..30 bucks tho whichh isnt thatt bad..cuz its totally worth it with alll the amazing bands that are playing..ventura..here i am! lol..of course cynthias coming too!! which is gonna be so much fun...brandon just kinda said..hey nicole...im going to warp tour..wanna come? im like omg r u serious? fucking score! lol..cuz me and cynthia were bummed about not being able to go cuz we didnt have a ride and now we do!! the only issue is money but im sure things wont go downhill hehe..and chris might be there soo it'll be a shitload of fun!! hehe..
as for like anything else..im on my period.which im like a week and sumthing late and it sucks asss...im just kinda..in one of those weird moods..where you listen to music and think alot...i guess this song just isnt helping.."dare you to move"-switchfoot..but its the orginal version off the movie a walk to remember not the newer version were its like..more guitar and it doesnt sound so depressing lol..i like this version anyways..my legs are sore as well..yesterday me and cindy were packing all of her shit in her house to put in storage because she has an inspection today for her apartments..it sucked..but..yeah ohh shit..i hung out with gonzo yesterday too lol..it was ammusing...cuz i only see that guy like every once in a blue moon..he lost like..100 pounds..hes had a hard life...i feel really bad for him..all the shit hes hadda go thru lately just sucks..im glad i saw him yesterday tho..he said he was happy to see me..which made me happy of course. and wow this is a long ass entery...i just feel all..in need to like vent. everythings just been bugging me lately.. i mean..like random people hate me and for no reason..whats SO bad about me? honestly...i mean..am I thaaatt bad of a person? blah..i dunno...why am i still here? blaaah..these are the things that run thru my emo mind 24/7 but ya kno? i just never bitch cuz i mean everyone makes funna me being emo enough already..if i started acting like how i felt half the time..the teasing would neverr stop..blah..well i think ive written enough...
4th of July is coming soon and around the corner!! should be interesting..dunno wtf im gonna do but im gonna have fun and probably get really drunk!! so..Everyone else..be safe and use condoms!! lol..:) dont light anyones house on fire either (lol chris) anyways...yeah!! comment if u want! :) MuCh LoVe!
~*~LiL nICoLeY~*~
aside from that...my cousins been here for the past couple of days..he left this morning..it was cool..hanging out with my cousin.. me and him are really close..soo its kinda cool..:) i hardly ever see him because he lives in northridge but seeing him was really awesome..i hung out with him and a shitload of people last night...it was cool..we went to taco bell to eat cuz me, cindy and kim were hungry soo brandon was like okay lets to get sum chili cheese dogs..but weinershiznal was closed lol cuz it was like 12..soo..we went to taco bell instead lol it was cool..we got back to shanes house and he was all over this girl sam..shes okay i mean..i dunno..me and shane had sum weird thing goin on but its been done cuz mike kinda freaked me out by telling me sum bull shit that my cousin was gonna like slit his throat if he touched me so i kinda got scared and stopped talking to him..he didnt even acknowlegde my existance but its like whatever...
ohh i should probably tell anyone who actually reads this shit about the bull shit thats been going on w/ me and steve and mike and cynthia and this guy named andrew..okayyy so me and andrew have had classes together for the last 2 years..he was always really nice to me until he started hanging out with steve and mike..which was like whatever..soo the other night i was walking with kc and jed and steve and mike and andrew were like down the street..and steve started like..coughing n was like ahhh jew!! like pretending to sneeze..it was like wow how immature can you be? i just kinda blew it off like whatever, but like an hour or 2 before me and mike got into a huuge ass fight because like...he was talking mad shit about me to cynthia and she told me cuz it was only the right thing to do..and the shit he said about me was like omgg..soo horrible that i wont even disclose any of it cuz it just sucked and was a shit load of bull shit...and apparently..cindy misunderstood what i said and told mike i called him fat which i didnt..and i already told mike that but whatever..and me and him just arent talking anymore..cuz thats gay..im not gonna be friends with someone who talks that much shit about me n the sad part was after he talked all that shit about me the next day we hung out and he was all buddy buddy with me..:( whatever ya know? mike was my like bestfriend..i told the guy almost everything i was feeling and i really thought he undertsood but i guess it was just like an act or whatever and well andrew kept calling me and like..steve would be yelling shit in the back and andrew kept calling me a fat jew and shit..omg..i was soo pissed..i started crying and i was on the fone with my friend chris..(cool guy) and i just lost it..i was bawling my eyes out and cynthia called mike and was like wtf ya kno? leave her alone she didnt say anything to you guys and blah blah and of course it didnt make anything better..and then andrew started talking shit about cynthia and all this bull shit broke out..it sucks..whatever its done and im not gonna like..bitch or make it anymore of a big deal cuz it blew up pretty big last night and i dont want it to be anymore of a big deal. so..as for that..its done..
myy friend chris went to warp tour yesterday!!! lucky bastard!! lol.hes so cool tho..yeaahh but speaking of warp tour im supposed to go on july 7th!! lol hehehe..i need like..30 bucks tho whichh isnt thatt bad..cuz its totally worth it with alll the amazing bands that are playing..ventura..here i am! lol..of course cynthias coming too!! which is gonna be so much fun...brandon just kinda said..hey nicole...im going to warp tour..wanna come? im like omg r u serious? fucking score! lol..cuz me and cynthia were bummed about not being able to go cuz we didnt have a ride and now we do!! the only issue is money but im sure things wont go downhill hehe..and chris might be there soo it'll be a shitload of fun!! hehe..
as for like anything else..im on my period.which im like a week and sumthing late and it sucks asss...im just kinda..in one of those weird moods..where you listen to music and think alot...i guess this song just isnt helping.."dare you to move"-switchfoot..but its the orginal version off the movie a walk to remember not the newer version were its like..more guitar and it doesnt sound so depressing lol..i like this version anyways..my legs are sore as well..yesterday me and cindy were packing all of her shit in her house to put in storage because she has an inspection today for her apartments..it sucked..but..yeah ohh shit..i hung out with gonzo yesterday too lol..it was ammusing...cuz i only see that guy like every once in a blue moon..he lost like..100 pounds..hes had a hard life...i feel really bad for him..all the shit hes hadda go thru lately just sucks..im glad i saw him yesterday tho..he said he was happy to see me..which made me happy of course. and wow this is a long ass entery...i just feel all..in need to like vent. everythings just been bugging me lately.. i mean..like random people hate me and for no reason..whats SO bad about me? honestly...i mean..am I thaaatt bad of a person? blah..i dunno...why am i still here? blaaah..these are the things that run thru my emo mind 24/7 but ya kno? i just never bitch cuz i mean everyone makes funna me being emo enough already..if i started acting like how i felt half the time..the teasing would neverr stop..blah..well i think ive written enough...
4th of July is coming soon and around the corner!! should be interesting..dunno wtf im gonna do but im gonna have fun and probably get really drunk!! so..Everyone else..be safe and use condoms!! lol..:) dont light anyones house on fire either (lol chris) anyways...yeah!! comment if u want! :) MuCh LoVe!
~*~LiL nICoLeY~*~