You know ive come to realize....
im fucked up...
I just am...
I have no sense in whats going on with myself anymore...
Im hurt..
I just dont care anymore.
How could someone deny something so true?
Something so hurtful?
i'll never understand...
I just...thought he cared..
and he didnt...
he really..truely...didnt.
and i didnt even know dude..
i had no idea.
im selfish...
i know...i have a hard time thinking about others when something is wrong with me...
but like 99% of the time thats all i think about..
is other people...
i make other people happy..i know i do..
Jeff from A thorn for every heart...he tells me i make him happy and i make him smile...
thats like..a huge compliment..
i dont know what i freaking live for anymore..
you dont know me...
i dont even fucking know me...
im torn..in two..over you..
blah..
so this is probably going to be one of the emo-est things ive written in a while..
because until now...i didnt realize how bad things actually are...
i hate him.
you dont even know me.
i probably dont even know you.
ugh...why am I so upset with myself?
OH
i know, because i fucked up.
YES i admit it. I fucking fucked up.
shoot me.
please..
or can you atleast stab me RIGHT in the heart...
and not in the back...
or can you dust my peices into a pan, and throw them away
i cant use them
theres no use.
=\
im miserable..damnit..
i hate this..
i hate life..
i fucking hate him.
Im out. I cant write anymore, Eyes r flooded.
I just am...
I have no sense in whats going on with myself anymore...
Im hurt..
I just dont care anymore.
How could someone deny something so true?
Something so hurtful?
i'll never understand...
I just...thought he cared..
and he didnt...
he really..truely...didnt.
and i didnt even know dude..
i had no idea.
im selfish...
i know...i have a hard time thinking about others when something is wrong with me...
but like 99% of the time thats all i think about..
is other people...
i make other people happy..i know i do..
Jeff from A thorn for every heart...he tells me i make him happy and i make him smile...
thats like..a huge compliment..
i dont know what i freaking live for anymore..
you dont know me...
i dont even fucking know me...
im torn..in two..over you..
blah..
so this is probably going to be one of the emo-est things ive written in a while..
because until now...i didnt realize how bad things actually are...
i hate him.
you dont even know me.
i probably dont even know you.
ugh...why am I so upset with myself?
OH
i know, because i fucked up.
YES i admit it. I fucking fucked up.
shoot me.
please..
or can you atleast stab me RIGHT in the heart...
and not in the back...
or can you dust my peices into a pan, and throw them away
i cant use them
theres no use.
=\
im miserable..damnit..
i hate this..
i hate life..
i fucking hate him.
Im out. I cant write anymore, Eyes r flooded.