can u please remove the knife you placed in my heart? it hurts.
So i already updated my xanga earlier, but..its 3am, i cant sleep and life pretty much sucks right now...
So..Im in love with this guy, Who obviously doesnt love me back...and it hurts..it really does...I dunno but...this weekend was like...weird. and I feel now like Ive set myself up for my own downfall, I really feel alone, like..I know i have friends and people who care about me, but...like...ahck i dont even know how to possibly explain how im feeling right now. its like a mix of emotions all at once. i mean...ugh...its frusterating.
anyways....aside from my frusteration and my cluster of emotions, nothings really new, im going to see Odd Project/Nevea Tears/Farewell Forever + more on friday, so, that should be nice, to see my friends and stuff, i miss them. blah...i just...need a hug like..as pathetic as that sounds i just want someone to hug me and tell me that things r gonna get better, ahck. This sucks..I just did like 3 hours of homework, blah..Im exhausted but i cant sleep cuz i have all these thoughts running through my head, they just keep piling up, i mean all i wanna know is whats going on? maybe get some closure if its needed..instead of being here, broken...and confused..and beating myself up, i dont even know if any of it is even worth it.
I lost another friend like 2 days ago, this kid also said he was like my bestfriend and all the sudden he snapped, and said all these horrible things that werent true, like..i only need him when its conveinant for me. thats crap. whatever though, if im such a bad friend, then...dont waste ur time on me anymore...
Am i really THAT bad of a friend, in the course of like 2 fucking months i've lost 2 good friends of mine..god..whats wrong with me? ugh...whatever...im just depressing myself more, im just gonna go...
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So..Im in love with this guy, Who obviously doesnt love me back...and it hurts..it really does...I dunno but...this weekend was like...weird. and I feel now like Ive set myself up for my own downfall, I really feel alone, like..I know i have friends and people who care about me, but...like...ahck i dont even know how to possibly explain how im feeling right now. its like a mix of emotions all at once. i mean...ugh...its frusterating.
anyways....aside from my frusteration and my cluster of emotions, nothings really new, im going to see Odd Project/Nevea Tears/Farewell Forever + more on friday, so, that should be nice, to see my friends and stuff, i miss them. blah...i just...need a hug like..as pathetic as that sounds i just want someone to hug me and tell me that things r gonna get better, ahck. This sucks..I just did like 3 hours of homework, blah..Im exhausted but i cant sleep cuz i have all these thoughts running through my head, they just keep piling up, i mean all i wanna know is whats going on? maybe get some closure if its needed..instead of being here, broken...and confused..and beating myself up, i dont even know if any of it is even worth it.
I lost another friend like 2 days ago, this kid also said he was like my bestfriend and all the sudden he snapped, and said all these horrible things that werent true, like..i only need him when its conveinant for me. thats crap. whatever though, if im such a bad friend, then...dont waste ur time on me anymore...
Am i really THAT bad of a friend, in the course of like 2 fucking months i've lost 2 good friends of mine..god..whats wrong with me? ugh...whatever...im just depressing myself more, im just gonna go...
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