...this is the way i would of done things...
hey kids! well..since halloween...not much has been going on...I talked to Anthony and he told me how he supposidly loved me and all this shit..and then we hung out like last tuesday and he blew me off like i didnt matter, im like..how do you love someone if your like..ashamed to be seen with them in public? ugh whatever..but yeah..i dunno ive been actually pretty good lately..lots of good/bad things have been going on..okay..lets start w/ the bad..cuz we can save the good things for last.
Bad: Me and Cynthia got into this HUGE ass fight because a couple fridays ago she got really drunk at Chris' ex boyfriends house and Mike,Steve,Erik,Jeremy, and Sam were there..and Cynthia went with them to get some drugs lol and i dont know what actually went on..but she told me what happened..and then Mike kept bringing it up on Monday when i went to hang out with all of them..and I told him what Cindy told me and he flipped the fuck out and called cynthia and told her all this bullshit about me now believing her and all this bull shit drama..which sucks ass..and then she called me and flipppedd out..and i was like whatever..and then later that night i told her that we shouldnt talk anymore cuz she kept throwing that whole.."ur supposed to be my bestfriend.." bull shit on me..which is sooo lame. i hate that shit sooooo much...whatever though..soo i didnt call her ALL week..then I called her today and I talked to her, and I was the bigger person and I apologized. Yes..Nicole apologized. I mean I couldnt just continue not to talk to her and be all fucking rude..cuz thats not me.. but yeah theres bad thing number 1. bad thing number 2 was like..you know how i was talking about that Jeremy guy..I mean..he was reallllyy sweet and cute. but he was too obessive.like..i'd known the kid 2 days and he liked me SOOO much..it was insane..and i hardly talked to him which was kinda weird..and i dunno i liked the attention that he gave me..but when i saw him..i dunno hes still a kid..hasnt grown out of that stage yet...it just kinda went downhill w/ that..and After ALL that broke out..I finally told Anthony that it just couldnt work out right now because honestly..that kid treats me soo badly..and like I just dealt with it..and was blinded by it cuz i was in love with him..it sucks..and then when we hung out w/ him on tuesday it was like...i wasnt even there, he said like 2 words to me..it sucks because now that i think about it...he'd only wanna show affection when we were alone, and then all he'd want to do is do stuff w/ me..and its stupid..and i dont want that right now..i told him if its meant to be then it will be. but right now..it cant be...and i do love him..but..i just cant be w/ him...so..theres all the bad news...its all kinda depressing which is why i saved the good news for last!
Good: So on Tuesday night some random S/n shows up on my AIM buddy list..and Im like who the fuck is that..soo I IM this person and Im like..hey sorry if i sound alittle weird but i dont know who you are and your on my buddy list..hes like Oh Im Matt Stella..and im like..who? and hes like Matt? I scream for A Beautiful Elegy..im like..uh huh..right? i dont know you..lol..well..okay i should prolly tell everyone this part first..well okay everytime i went to a show I always saw this really hott guy..and I had NO idea who he was but hes soo hot..and everytime i'd see him i'd be like omg this kid is SO hot...and I even saw him at the mall one time..and like..wow..it was crazy..hes just soo amazingly cute! and anyways..thats the first part..and now...i was like hmm i dont know you and he said that he had a myspace and I told him to send me a link..and he did..and i went to his page..and almost shit my pants...it was the guy that i'd seen at like every show!! i was like...omg omg omg! haha..it was crazy..soo i decided to be kinda gay and have him call me..so he calls around like..2..and we talk about everything..until like..8am! it was insane...6 hours!! i was like omgg lol...and then the next night..we talked for 10 hours..about everything..then on Friday I went to this hardcore/metal fest or whatever...and his band played and we watched them..and he told Caroline (my sister) that he liked me alot..and i mean..when u talk to someone on the phone for THAT long..you start to know them..like know them know them..and it was really nice..hanging out with him on friday was awesome!! then he called me and we talked for another 6 hours..then we hung out on saturday..and we went to see the Grudge omg..that movie is STILL scary and ive seen it twice, then we went to Albertsons and got donuts n went to Jeds house..n hung out with Jed,Cynthia,Chris,Javier and Caroline then Zack and Shane showed up..then Matt asked me out!! aww..i was soo happy..then we left n now i just got a phone call from cynthia n christopher got arrested, ugh wow...well thats it.
thats all so far!
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Bad: Me and Cynthia got into this HUGE ass fight because a couple fridays ago she got really drunk at Chris' ex boyfriends house and Mike,Steve,Erik,Jeremy, and Sam were there..and Cynthia went with them to get some drugs lol and i dont know what actually went on..but she told me what happened..and then Mike kept bringing it up on Monday when i went to hang out with all of them..and I told him what Cindy told me and he flipped the fuck out and called cynthia and told her all this bullshit about me now believing her and all this bull shit drama..which sucks ass..and then she called me and flipppedd out..and i was like whatever..and then later that night i told her that we shouldnt talk anymore cuz she kept throwing that whole.."ur supposed to be my bestfriend.." bull shit on me..which is sooo lame. i hate that shit sooooo much...whatever though..soo i didnt call her ALL week..then I called her today and I talked to her, and I was the bigger person and I apologized. Yes..Nicole apologized. I mean I couldnt just continue not to talk to her and be all fucking rude..cuz thats not me.. but yeah theres bad thing number 1. bad thing number 2 was like..you know how i was talking about that Jeremy guy..I mean..he was reallllyy sweet and cute. but he was too obessive.like..i'd known the kid 2 days and he liked me SOOO much..it was insane..and i hardly talked to him which was kinda weird..and i dunno i liked the attention that he gave me..but when i saw him..i dunno hes still a kid..hasnt grown out of that stage yet...it just kinda went downhill w/ that..and After ALL that broke out..I finally told Anthony that it just couldnt work out right now because honestly..that kid treats me soo badly..and like I just dealt with it..and was blinded by it cuz i was in love with him..it sucks..and then when we hung out w/ him on tuesday it was like...i wasnt even there, he said like 2 words to me..it sucks because now that i think about it...he'd only wanna show affection when we were alone, and then all he'd want to do is do stuff w/ me..and its stupid..and i dont want that right now..i told him if its meant to be then it will be. but right now..it cant be...and i do love him..but..i just cant be w/ him...so..theres all the bad news...its all kinda depressing which is why i saved the good news for last!
Good: So on Tuesday night some random S/n shows up on my AIM buddy list..and Im like who the fuck is that..soo I IM this person and Im like..hey sorry if i sound alittle weird but i dont know who you are and your on my buddy list..hes like Oh Im Matt Stella..and im like..who? and hes like Matt? I scream for A Beautiful Elegy..im like..uh huh..right? i dont know you..lol..well..okay i should prolly tell everyone this part first..well okay everytime i went to a show I always saw this really hott guy..and I had NO idea who he was but hes soo hot..and everytime i'd see him i'd be like omg this kid is SO hot...and I even saw him at the mall one time..and like..wow..it was crazy..hes just soo amazingly cute! and anyways..thats the first part..and now...i was like hmm i dont know you and he said that he had a myspace and I told him to send me a link..and he did..and i went to his page..and almost shit my pants...it was the guy that i'd seen at like every show!! i was like...omg omg omg! haha..it was crazy..soo i decided to be kinda gay and have him call me..so he calls around like..2..and we talk about everything..until like..8am! it was insane...6 hours!! i was like omgg lol...and then the next night..we talked for 10 hours..about everything..then on Friday I went to this hardcore/metal fest or whatever...and his band played and we watched them..and he told Caroline (my sister) that he liked me alot..and i mean..when u talk to someone on the phone for THAT long..you start to know them..like know them know them..and it was really nice..hanging out with him on friday was awesome!! then he called me and we talked for another 6 hours..then we hung out on saturday..and we went to see the Grudge omg..that movie is STILL scary and ive seen it twice, then we went to Albertsons and got donuts n went to Jeds house..n hung out with Jed,Cynthia,Chris,Javier and Caroline then Zack and Shane showed up..then Matt asked me out!! aww..i was soo happy..then we left n now i just got a phone call from cynthia n christopher got arrested, ugh wow...well thats it.
thats all so far!
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