...ill fall asleep tonight cause that brings me closer to you...

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the last couple days have been pretty eventful if i must say...umm..well since the last time i updated haha..i didnt end up going to Chris' he told me to stay home cuz i was all depressed and weird..kinda sucked..but oh well..i pretty much spent the day chowing on sleeping pills..and planning a surprise thing for Christopher cuz it was his birthday..soo around like 9 on Sept 1st..Cynthia calls me and shes like Nicole come over christophers gone and we have to finish setting up everything..so..i wake myself up..gather some goodies..and i leave..i get there around like 9:15 or so..and we started trying to figure out everything..we like couldnt decide on a cake omg..we were about to run to that beaner store and go buy one.but couldnt haha no money..forgot about that one..so we just bunched up a shitload of cookies..and mashmellow sause stuff..and butterscotch pudding n made a nice little house..hahah it was the cutest thingy ever..and we put candles in it so he could blow em out..so after we made that cake we stuck it in the fridge so it would kinda get hard..and waited around..we put britney spears in cindys cd player to get it all ready cuz we had it planned that like me and sara *cynthias lil sis* would be hiding on the bed with confetti and i'd push play as he walked in and we'd throw confetti at him haha...he had NOOO clue i was coming..he was mad at me cuz i pulled this whole shit like.."oh christopher im calling to say goodbye..blah blah im in my bathtub i took some pills...it was nice knowing u" kinda bull shit..so he was pretty mad and me and cynthia played it off like we were fighting and blah blah lol...and like..he really had NOO clue..and me and cynthia just like lounged around the house for like 2 hours omg..he didnt even show up until like..12:30..1..annd we did it as planned..except he didnt call before he came home so he just kinda showed up and cynthias running around the house n shes yelling "HOLD ON CHRISTOPHER IM TAKING A SHIT" hahaha so he'd think she couldnt get to the door..and we got into our spots..and he walked in and nearly shit himself hahaha..it was the coolest thing ive ever seen he was almost in tears..i was like awww..he was soo happy to see me..i felt all happy hahah ..when he found out that the whole day was pretty much planned out he was like *GASP* hahaha..i guess he was really mad at me and him and Cynthia talked about the whole thing haha..oh well me and cynthia are good actors..and i mean..that kinda shit is expected from me apparently..he believed me n he was like omg nicole i could just imagine you..laying in the bathtub..just sinking further n further in hahaha i was like omg would i really be calling u if i was drowning myself? i think not! haha..<3 he had a really good time..he actually hooked up with someone w00t hahah..it was nice..to see that BIGG smile on his face when he walked in it was like awwww..haha..and then today..(yesterday) went by pretty fast..it was like i woke up around 2:30pm and we ate tacos..and played UNO for awhile..and at 4 my mom came and picked me up..and i sat around here for awhile cleaning and such..and my parents came home from my brothers baseball game and we ate carls jr..mm it was gooood hahah..n then christopher came over and we danced around listening to britney spears..(SHH U NEVER HEARD THAT) n nsync..(cough shut up chris hahaha) it was alot of fun..and we're just fucking around on myspace..messaging random people..its fun =) i talked to marley alittle bit today and i read her journal..it was saddening..i mean at her age i was going thru the same bull shit..hating myself..thinkin no one cared..i dunno..its a phase you usually pull yourself out of it..im tryin ta help her out cuz i know how it was for me..and i mean i was getting into the stupid stuff..(ahem) dun need her doing that shit..soo yeah..hmmm...jen has a new husband...her texan love hahah i dunno..i have NO idea why i put that in here..but oh wellz haha..yeah soo the show on Saturday is gonna owwnn!! oh daddy..i cant wait..its kinda funny..I talked to Anthony tonight n he was being a dick kinda..i dunno he just..doesnt understand haha..i think hes just moving on n he doesnt like me that much anymore..understandable i guess..but yeah hes supposed to be coming over here in the morning with some girl brittney.. i guess its his cousins fiancee..whatever..its gonna be really weird with her being here..ima be really uncomfortable..but oh well..and by the time hee gets here..break the sky should be well on there way since their supposed to be here at like..10..i dunno..<3..that should be fun..oh wellz tho..well i dunno not much else to write about..so im out like a gay kid in the closet..<3 much love!!
x0x0,
Nikki