what's wrong with my life today?

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I'm am in SUCH a bad mood today. I don't think anything else could wrong right now. Who gives a fuck about the god damn snow, I wish I did. Ugh. My spleen hurts so much, and it's driving me crazy. Up the wall actually. I'm just so sick of everything, I just wish that I could leave here, leave here and never come back. There's certain things and people I would miss, but the fact of the matter is that I could leave everything behind, all of it. I could start a new life, become a different person. I know just where I'd go. New York City. I don't want to be anywhere but there. Mark my words, just as soon as I can I'll go there. And stay, and never ever come back. It'll be so nice. It's something about that city that I just fall in love with. I can't help it. I'm not meant for a small city like this, I'm a big city girl. I just need that so much, and I have no clue why. I've always needed it. Finished Catalyst, awesome book. It really made me realize that other people have bigger problems than mine, so who cares about mine...

I don't. I'm so happy, but so angry at the same time. I mean I just knew things couldn't get too good. But I guess nothing's really changed, I still feel the same I always have. Like I don't know myself, that's my problem. I just don't know who I am anymore. If I was God, I would be looking down laughing my ass off and all of this drama. Life is so overrated. I'm sorry I'm being so "uh" I can't help it. I've been like this for the past year. I'm sorry for those of you who have real problems, you shouldn't be bothered with my whining. I think I'll stop though, it's making me tired.