Owner of a Lonely Heart
What is it?
What am I doing, or not doing, to deserve this?
I don't want to murmur, but this is more than some mood swing and I can't figure out why I am so unhappy these days.
Tonight I went to FHE. The whole ward went to a park and played. I had been looking forward to it a little, but when it came time I had lost all social inclinations. I have a Russian test tomorrow anyway so I brought school work with me and didn't play.
I don't know anyone and would've had no one to feel comfortable playing with. Not even my roommates.
I am lonely. It sounds so silly and trite when spoken or written but oh well. I wish I knew more people but I don't have many places to meet others.
At least last semester I had visiting teachers and roommates that I was sort of friends with. More so than my current roommates anyhow.
This semester I have no V.T. or home teachers. Previous semesters I got callings right away and I met people that had the same major as I.
I'm not wanting friends so much just to have someone to party with, although when I am feeling social and fun it'd be nice to have a buddy to count on. Really I want friends so I can feel there's someone around who cares. Someone I can get a hug from. If I can't have peace or happiness in my life, can I at least have love?
On a different note, I got a call from Custodial Services today. They said they had a job they'd like to talk to me about. I imagine it's just a regular custodial job, but the fact that they called me, and I don't believe I'm on any waiting list, is rather odd. Ironically, just this morning I took an application to Broulims. They're hiring for night crew and I was very interested because the hours would work better with my school schedule (sleep schedule, life schedule) and they pay 65 cents more an hour than the school does.
Well I have homework for Religion still to do and Russian still to study. Too bad all I want to do is go to bed and sleep off this mood. What is wrong with me? Men are that they might have joy, right? So what do I need to do to be happy?
What am I doing, or not doing, to deserve this?
I don't want to murmur, but this is more than some mood swing and I can't figure out why I am so unhappy these days.
Tonight I went to FHE. The whole ward went to a park and played. I had been looking forward to it a little, but when it came time I had lost all social inclinations. I have a Russian test tomorrow anyway so I brought school work with me and didn't play.
I don't know anyone and would've had no one to feel comfortable playing with. Not even my roommates.
I am lonely. It sounds so silly and trite when spoken or written but oh well. I wish I knew more people but I don't have many places to meet others.
At least last semester I had visiting teachers and roommates that I was sort of friends with. More so than my current roommates anyhow.
This semester I have no V.T. or home teachers. Previous semesters I got callings right away and I met people that had the same major as I.
I'm not wanting friends so much just to have someone to party with, although when I am feeling social and fun it'd be nice to have a buddy to count on. Really I want friends so I can feel there's someone around who cares. Someone I can get a hug from. If I can't have peace or happiness in my life, can I at least have love?
On a different note, I got a call from Custodial Services today. They said they had a job they'd like to talk to me about. I imagine it's just a regular custodial job, but the fact that they called me, and I don't believe I'm on any waiting list, is rather odd. Ironically, just this morning I took an application to Broulims. They're hiring for night crew and I was very interested because the hours would work better with my school schedule (sleep schedule, life schedule) and they pay 65 cents more an hour than the school does.
Well I have homework for Religion still to do and Russian still to study. Too bad all I want to do is go to bed and sleep off this mood. What is wrong with me? Men are that they might have joy, right? So what do I need to do to be happy?