Im bored and crabby
Yup, it's true....It's monday night and I just finished an engergy drink and now i'm bored, got alot of engery and have nothing to do. I COULD do homework, but I work better then I'm close to my deadline so I will do it tomorrow....
I've come to the conclusion that since the plans are pretty much set that I'm moving, i dont want too. I've had alot of fun here, will I be happy at home in walla walla again? Like I've said before, I hate admitting that I couldnt make myself happy living on my own, away from home. Dont get me wrong, I am happy, but why do good things have to start happening when I'm getting ready to leave it here??? I met a great guy, what will happen when I leave?? I dont want to leave something good that can happen, and I dont know if I can handle a long-distance relationship. I need that physicallness (if that's a word). Dont get me wrong, I know I trust him, and even though it's still new, I've grown on his company and I love it. He's alot differnet, to me, than any other guy and he makes me happy......and yes, i've said that many time before...but I just feel this is different...but like he said (when I brought up long-distance) "if it's meant to be, then we'll know".
So, now i'm just sitting here........trying to think what's gonna happen in the next month or so, with my DUI, with Marcus and with school!! My plan right now is that I"m moving home and finishing school through Distance Learning, i'll be teaching myself, which to me is easier, i'll find my own ways in understanding things. Vancouver will still be my place of advising...but I'll be doing school from home, in Walla Walla.
Ok, i'm done writing now...
I miss you guys.......(you know who you are)
I've come to the conclusion that since the plans are pretty much set that I'm moving, i dont want too. I've had alot of fun here, will I be happy at home in walla walla again? Like I've said before, I hate admitting that I couldnt make myself happy living on my own, away from home. Dont get me wrong, I am happy, but why do good things have to start happening when I'm getting ready to leave it here??? I met a great guy, what will happen when I leave?? I dont want to leave something good that can happen, and I dont know if I can handle a long-distance relationship. I need that physicallness (if that's a word). Dont get me wrong, I know I trust him, and even though it's still new, I've grown on his company and I love it. He's alot differnet, to me, than any other guy and he makes me happy......and yes, i've said that many time before...but I just feel this is different...but like he said (when I brought up long-distance) "if it's meant to be, then we'll know".
So, now i'm just sitting here........trying to think what's gonna happen in the next month or so, with my DUI, with Marcus and with school!! My plan right now is that I"m moving home and finishing school through Distance Learning, i'll be teaching myself, which to me is easier, i'll find my own ways in understanding things. Vancouver will still be my place of advising...but I'll be doing school from home, in Walla Walla.
Ok, i'm done writing now...
I miss you guys.......(you know who you are)