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Today I went grocery shopping with my mom. I guess that is all I did but I might go swimming later. I for some reason am having problems wiht my moods again. My medicine is supposed to be helping that. I'm really scared that I'm going to hurt someone or myself. I don't know what to do. I don't want to go to the doctor because they will just change my medicine again and I'll have to go throught the withdarwl of my medicine and that hurts. I guess it is physical as well as mental. My dad keeps asking me if I'm mental and I keep asking him if he is fat or if it is just muscle. I don't know I'm just sick of it all and I want to disappear. It's not like anyone would care anyways.