waiting is so, so hard

[elxiii]

it's hard when you're waiting and you want sympathy and support, but you don't really want to talk about what you need support with.

feh.

those who talk to me regularly either know, or can figure it out.  anyone else?  i'll just say, long process,  results are not guaranteed.

and even when i succeed?  i can't tell everyone right away.  feh.

this is why i haven't posted much in several months.  ;-)