Moonlight on the Water
"See, I told you that's the most beautiful thing you'll ever see!"
"Uh huh..."
"You don't believe me, do you?"
"Nope."
"Why not?"
"Because I'm staring at the most beautiful thing."
*Smiles* Well other than that wonderful happening tonight, it finally hit me how much I actually love Kaji. We were on the boardwalk and we had to go find Happy and Hutch cuz we needed to get Kaji home ontime. Well we found them and Happy was crying... The first thing that came to my head was that Hutch was leaving... this conclusion came from a message that I heard on Happy's message machine telling her that he really needed to talk to her because his parents "had plans" when he was in Cali... And for some reason I felt like Suki and I was proud of it. I remembered thinking about how much Suki helped me when Jason left and every time Chris broke my heart. How much I looked at her and Gaber and just thought to myself, "If I can be half as happy as they are, my world would be perfect." Then I looked at Kaji who had his arm around me carrying the pound of fudge we had been eating and in that moment... I realized that I had reached the happiness I had been looking for and figured out that happiness wasn't a destination, it's the journy, it's how it makes you feel, and being with Kaji made me happy no matter what was going on. Then I looked at Happy, who by now was being carried by Hutch up the hill cuz her feet were hurting. I saw Happy and I wanted to help her the same way Suki help me though those tough times. Greatfully I learned that my theory of what happened was wrong. Hutch wasn't leaving, Happy was just having one of those nights where things that build up just come pouring out. As Hutch's mom picked him up, I sat by Happy and told hear what happened. She assured me that her tears had nothing to do with Hutch, and I was relieved. But I still felt like Suki because of the willingness I had to help Happy.
I've been helped many times in my life, and I aspire to be like those who helped me, and when I have reached that goal, it is one of the best moments in my life. Thanks Suki, for being such a great example.
"Uh huh..."
"You don't believe me, do you?"
"Nope."
"Why not?"
"Because I'm staring at the most beautiful thing."
*Smiles* Well other than that wonderful happening tonight, it finally hit me how much I actually love Kaji. We were on the boardwalk and we had to go find Happy and Hutch cuz we needed to get Kaji home ontime. Well we found them and Happy was crying... The first thing that came to my head was that Hutch was leaving... this conclusion came from a message that I heard on Happy's message machine telling her that he really needed to talk to her because his parents "had plans" when he was in Cali... And for some reason I felt like Suki and I was proud of it. I remembered thinking about how much Suki helped me when Jason left and every time Chris broke my heart. How much I looked at her and Gaber and just thought to myself, "If I can be half as happy as they are, my world would be perfect." Then I looked at Kaji who had his arm around me carrying the pound of fudge we had been eating and in that moment... I realized that I had reached the happiness I had been looking for and figured out that happiness wasn't a destination, it's the journy, it's how it makes you feel, and being with Kaji made me happy no matter what was going on. Then I looked at Happy, who by now was being carried by Hutch up the hill cuz her feet were hurting. I saw Happy and I wanted to help her the same way Suki help me though those tough times. Greatfully I learned that my theory of what happened was wrong. Hutch wasn't leaving, Happy was just having one of those nights where things that build up just come pouring out. As Hutch's mom picked him up, I sat by Happy and told hear what happened. She assured me that her tears had nothing to do with Hutch, and I was relieved. But I still felt like Suki because of the willingness I had to help Happy.
I've been helped many times in my life, and I aspire to be like those who helped me, and when I have reached that goal, it is one of the best moments in my life. Thanks Suki, for being such a great example.