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ok so today started out shitty. i was late to work and i played a horrible game today. i don't remember when i played that bad, i couldn't keep the damn puck on my stick or play any defense. then after my game things got better. i went over to the Brit and Kyles house and hung out with some friends for awhile. i was hitting on Brit and Kyle's mom. i got shut down again by her. i told Kyle when i came over i was going to walk into her room naked. when i got there he answered the door and i already had my shoes off and my shorts were coming off. i went into her room and she was on the computer. i was like "hey there, are you ready?" as my shorts were around my ankles. she giggled and told me that i need to let her know in advance so that way she can send her husband away for the day so we can have more than the two hours that we had untill he got home from work. i was like, i don't need that long. what the hell was she thinking. anyways some other fun facts about the night: Brit didn't realize that leather came from cows! she is such a nerd, but in a good way. so then i left there early just so i could come online and talk to April. when i got on here she was 'away'. so i checked my email and myspace and eventually she came on but hardly said anything to me. after about 20 minutes (the last 10, she didn't say anything to me) she just logged off without saying anything. i was so upset and sad at the same time. i'm thinking i shouldn't have told her my secret yesterday. things were fine last night when i told her. she actually seemed somewhat happy about it but today i don't know what was up. she seemed like she didn't even want to talk to me. i don't mean to sound crazy or like a stalker or anything but i love are nightly talks. i haven't been able to talk to someone about anything for so long. shit, i want someone i can talk to. it seems like all my good frineds are gone. i used to be able to talk to Suzi about anything but we have been drifting apart. i wish we could be best friends like we used to, when we talked everyday or everyother day about everything. we would go out all the time, act like snobs and make fun of people we didn't like or just people we thought looked dumb. i look forward to my nightly talks to April. it always brings a smile to my face no matter how shitty my day was. it feels good to vent to someone or even to just ramble on about music with someone. alright i think i'm done now. i'm going to go watch Ghost World.