I feel like a poorly made lifetime movie

[elvis666]

Has anyone else at some just not felt like themselves? I can't really put my finger on it, it just seems like I am not in control on my life at this moment. I think I am experiencing a lack of motivation because I feel like it doesn't matter what I do because I have no control. I am going on a short vacation next week, maybe being away from P-town will help me clear my mind. I actually think this city puts a drag on me...sorry all of you P-town natives, I really don't like it here. As soon as I get my degree I am out. I do like our new apartment better, it's finally done. It's weird though, I think in makes me tired...I don't know...I come home and then I just don't want to do anything....then again that could also be part of "my world is falling apart around me" feelings I have been having. I have been meaning to do several things for over a week now...but they still aren't done. I think I need some prozac or paxil or something. Oh well, I don't have the motivation to go see someone to give it to me.

On a completely different not I thought Julie was going to die last weekend. On Thursday I made here go to the Bradley Health Center to get checked out (she had a really bad sore throat). They did a strep test (neg.), gave here tylenol with codene and said come back tuesday. Well on Sunday (at my house in the Hub City) her throat got all swollen and hurt so bad she was acutally in tears. So I made her go the the emergency room...it ended up she had an abscessed left tonsil and they totally missed it at bradley. She got some vicadin and an antibiotic. Today I think she is back to normal...but it was an exciting birthday (July 26th) weekend for me.

I think I am going to go to bed no