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I most likely will not be going to graduate school. Definitely not next year. There are several reasons for this, but I doubt people are really all that interested.
Anyways, since I won't be going to graduate school, I am so doing ( this )
Anyways, since I won't be going to graduate school, I am so doing ( this )
1) My GPA is not where I would like it to be to enter grad school. Not that I couldn't get in, it would just take more. (Ie, probably would need to retake the GRE, have some kick-ass recommendations, and give reasons as to why my GPA isn't where it should be and prove that I can handle grad school, etc.)
2) I think a lot of the reason I was looking at grad school to begin with was because it was just expected of me. I'm more or less tired of doing what my family and society expects. If/when I go to graduate school, it should be because I want to be there, not to fulfill anyone else's expectations.
3) When I talked with Father M., he had some wonderful advice. Among such advice was to wait two to three years before entering a convent, not because my calling isn't real and will go away, but to prove to doubters that I can make it in the world and I am not just running away. He also suggested that by doing this, it would help me face doubts that inevitably arise along the formation process after I've entered. He has a point. However, proving that I can make it in the world does not involve me living at my mom's while I go to school. It involves me living by myself (or with a roommate), supporting myself, without financial support from my family. I cannot do that and avoid debt if I go to graduate school right now.
4) I have no idea what I would want to get a Masters in. Or rather, there are too many areas of study that I would enjoy for me to narrow it down. Neither religious studies or theology is very practical. I have thought about a MBA or MPA (which is a MBA for gov't and non-profit organizations), but I'm not really sure I want to go that route. However, I've also thought about a Masters in Counseling or Social Work. And then there is the idea of going back even to undergrad to learn Spanish since 50% of American Catholics speak Spanish and it would help me to minister to the bulk of American Catholics. Or, there is always the TEEMS program here at GSU. I have all of these ideas floating about in my head, and I can't decide which I want to do, which I am called to do, and which are there because that is what is expected - which goes back to reason number 1 of course.
This may sound selfish, but I've come to a point where I have to decide what I want. Forget how my family and friends may feel about my decision, I need to do what is best for me. Did you know I don't even know what I am good at? I actually rely on other people to tell me that. That is ridiculous. I need to rely on my own opinions, take some chances, and if I fall . . . well, then I fall.
Unfortunately, this doesn't mean I am completely done with school. At the moment, I am considering getting a certificate of Human Resources at Gwinnett Tech next year. That should help me get an entry level job in human resources, to allow me a well-enough paying job to afford a small apartment by myself. I haven't entirely decided yet. Depends a lot on if I can find a job without it before the fall semester there starts.
Anyways, sorry twas so long, but there you have it.
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Let me know if you need my help or just a referance on a resume.
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Seriously, thanks for your support. Wouldn't have changed my mind had you disagreed, but it is nice knowing I can always count on you for support.
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