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Today was a lousy day at work. Several frustrating issues came to a head and I finally talked to my manager about some of it. I can't remember ever telling a manager I've worked for the issues I am having, especially when it involves other people. I hate going and pointing fingers and being like "this person never does her work, so I end up doing it for her and I'm sick of covering the slack." My mentality normally is to shut up and get the work done. After all, I have no control over what other people do, but I can control what I do and how I react. As long as I get my work done, and make sure everything that needs to be done is done, it is really none of my business what others do. Unfortunately, it has gotten to the point that I'm routinely trying to do at least 2, if not 3 people's jobs all at the same time, and honestly I'm sick of it. To make matters worse, the very people I'm covering for (by doing their work for them) are apparently going behind my back and saying nasty things about me because I actually do work while I'm at work. And I can't just stop doing what I am doing because then the store manager would ask me why I didn't do it when I saw it wasn't being done. It is like a catch 22.
I should have learned by now. I know I have "sucker" written on my forehead in big bold letters when it comes to work. I stay late without complaining. I will skip my breaks if business needs me to. I will come in on my days off, and switch with people as long as it doesn't conflict with school. And yes, I will make sure everything is done, even if it isn't necessarily my job to do it. Which is probably how and why I got the position I am in. I should learn to be like everyone else I work with. Which is, never staying late, insist on every single break, even the unscheduled 10-minute breaks the smokers make damned sure they get. (Which I really don't have a problem with, I remember what it was like.) And oh yeah, just stand there, look pretty, smile to your face, talk behind your back, and leave others to do my work for me.
This is not my "career." This is not what I plan to do for the rest of my life. It is a job to pay the bills while I'm in school. But is it so wrong to care about doing a good job, even if it isn't my "career"? Is it so wrong to care about how I work and do my job even if it isn't the most glamorous in the world?
*sigh* End rant.
It will be ok. Tomorrow I get to have lunch with Em. And hopefully I get to have dinner Sharon before choir. Plus, I get to see all my friends from choir tomorrow. (We had last week off.) And who knows? Maybe I'll win the lottery tonight. *grins*
It is absolutley sickening that I can still be even relatively cheerful after the day I've had. And yet I am.
If nothing else, I still know I'll get to marry the most wonderful Being in existence. God. *smiles* I have to admit, He is enough to make me smile no matter what I'm dealing with at work. And the thought of being able to dedicate my life entirely to Him in religious life almost makes me glow.
You know it is bad when after Mass I am glowing so much from happiness, I've been accused of having the "afterglow". LOL
Well, it is nearly bed time for me. Have a wonderful night/day/week/month/year/yada yada yada.
I should have learned by now. I know I have "sucker" written on my forehead in big bold letters when it comes to work. I stay late without complaining. I will skip my breaks if business needs me to. I will come in on my days off, and switch with people as long as it doesn't conflict with school. And yes, I will make sure everything is done, even if it isn't necessarily my job to do it. Which is probably how and why I got the position I am in. I should learn to be like everyone else I work with. Which is, never staying late, insist on every single break, even the unscheduled 10-minute breaks the smokers make damned sure they get. (Which I really don't have a problem with, I remember what it was like.) And oh yeah, just stand there, look pretty, smile to your face, talk behind your back, and leave others to do my work for me.
This is not my "career." This is not what I plan to do for the rest of my life. It is a job to pay the bills while I'm in school. But is it so wrong to care about doing a good job, even if it isn't my "career"? Is it so wrong to care about how I work and do my job even if it isn't the most glamorous in the world?
*sigh* End rant.
It will be ok. Tomorrow I get to have lunch with Em. And hopefully I get to have dinner Sharon before choir. Plus, I get to see all my friends from choir tomorrow. (We had last week off.) And who knows? Maybe I'll win the lottery tonight. *grins*
It is absolutley sickening that I can still be even relatively cheerful after the day I've had. And yet I am.
If nothing else, I still know I'll get to marry the most wonderful Being in existence. God. *smiles* I have to admit, He is enough to make me smile no matter what I'm dealing with at work. And the thought of being able to dedicate my life entirely to Him in religious life almost makes me glow.
You know it is bad when after Mass I am glowing so much from happiness, I've been accused of having the "afterglow". LOL
Well, it is nearly bed time for me. Have a wonderful night/day/week/month/year/yada yada yada.