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I'm sure... as most of you can read in Jordon's journal... I'm now single... You can probably read what he posted if you want to know the gist of it.. I have no one to blame but myself.
I'm taking it very hard... a lot harder than I probably should be. Especially since I was the one that broke up with him.. I'm really confused.. I do care about him, a lot.. but I know I don't love him the way I use to... and its not fair to him...
Brett... being Brett... has told me if I decide to get back together with Jordon he wouldn't blame me. Still, even now, he's encouraging me to stay with Jordon. Sometimes I don't understand.. I don't know where I stand anymore... all I know is that I hate myself for all of this. For hurting the one person I never wanted to hurt.
I'm taking it very hard... a lot harder than I probably should be. Especially since I was the one that broke up with him.. I'm really confused.. I do care about him, a lot.. but I know I don't love him the way I use to... and its not fair to him...
Brett... being Brett... has told me if I decide to get back together with Jordon he wouldn't blame me. Still, even now, he's encouraging me to stay with Jordon. Sometimes I don't understand.. I don't know where I stand anymore... all I know is that I hate myself for all of this. For hurting the one person I never wanted to hurt.