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I am so depressed...I want to f*in die.....I am so g*d angry.....Today I had a bad stomach problem and I didnt feel good to begin with and I REALLy didn't wanna go to band and feel worse. Well, i decided I was gonna try and get out of band....ONCE....ONCE SINCE I WAS IN 7TH GRADE....I have never tried to do this before, cause I'm NOT a bad kid. I wrote that I was going to get tutoring in foreign language AKA french....which I actually contemplated going and doing....well, after I got done filling out the form I left, but by going to french tutoring I went to theatre to help, cause they needed it. Well, it turns out that theatre wasn't practicing 'till 5 and I couldn't have gone out to band anyway, I probably would've been late and i probably would'vr gotten griped out at anyway......well, So I decided to stay and like....paint in theatre..and Julianne was like: Hey we can't go get eyelets today cause I have too much homework to do...and so I was like oh, ok well, we really needa go sometime. Then she was like, we can go right now since we have an hour, and we got SO much done in that one hour, really...btw Alana and Ginger both overheard us so they went too, well THEATRE didn't get mad at them for leaving when they weren't supposed to(they were supposed to be cleaning) and it was they're FIRST performance of the year...yeah, it was bull crap, well, after we got back we went into the theatre dept. and I just stayed for a minute, then walked over to band to find Lindsey so I could go home. But while I was with her I asked: Did you see me at band? and she replied, No, and you got told on! my heart was like....siiiiink. But nobody gives a f* about my heart. The only person I can remember telling about hobby lobby was Kim....so I have reason to believe Kim squealed on me(Julianne thinks so too), but Lindsey said she didn't...I don't know WHO said anything but Mr. J called my Dad(ok f*heads, laugh it up you heartless b*es) and said my FRIENDS told on me....that means more than one. Well, it didn't just screw with band but it screwed with my family life, when I get home, away from school...Whoever told screwed with my DAILY AFTER SCHOOL LIFE, you made me cry on my bed, you made me hate myself more, you needed to keep to your own business, and it IS my business to know who you are, whoever told on me is a SPITEFUL baby from which satan has spawned, this has upset me so bad I feel like quitting band and I might just do that, words can't describe what I feel toward you, you are heartless and care only for yourself and your very close friends and/or family but not those who aren't as "important" to your life...(watch this be one of what I thought was my closest friends and I take all that back) ::sigh:: I have no idea what to think, but I hope you feel horrible for a while for what you did(even though you won't cause your just THAT WAY I bet...hmmph. NOBODY is even gonna tell me who did it, cause nobody cares about me...I swear, I should just give up on life.