I'm an imp.....!

[elvencleric]

First of all, I'm not going to let anything get me TOO down....since I still remember that I have friends who actually care about me. But anyways...last night I went to Julianne's worthy adviser induction(its for a thingy she's involved in called Rainbow), she signed me, Theo, and Theo's mom up for the "kitchen crew", which just meant we prepared

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[aquietmind]

Told you things would be better this way...Since you "still remember you have friends who actually care about you" everything will be splendid.

[elvencleric]

Uhm.....no....not...better, at least not for me. Maybe for you, which it makes me happy to know you're finally happy but...yeah, it really does wonders for me(not). My feelings are so tangled...I don't know what to think, I try to have fun to make me feel better, but in the back of my mind it doesn't really work....I feel like nobody f'in cares...nobody feels like caring, and it hurts worse than just feeling without the "nobody cares" feeling along with it. I don't know....I'm rabling about nonsens that once again....nobody cares about. Oh well, maybe I'll move, I actually seriously contemplated moving, to start a new life with different people to prove I CAN change. Where would I move? Agh, prolly with my mom, maybe my aunt, or possibly my uncle....that'd fix everyone else's problems with me....I wouldn't be around to hurt people..so everyone would be happy running around, not caring about me.