Life = Shit hole....
I love being loved, but I hate being hated....All I ask is that my friends show at least an ounce of love....some do, don't get me wrong, but other...whoa ho ho, no love for YOUUU Jacob! ::smile smile smile and fun:: ::death glare/loneliness:: I loathe being lonely and I like to make people feel less lonely when I can. Its not fair to have...lets say.....6 people in a group....2 of those people are "hosts" and they have 4 guests....Well if they TRY to please three guests but purposely leave out the 4th one....that is not right. Its not right at ALL to leave someone out JUST BECAUSE....the past is the past, the future is the future. Things change for the better(sometimes). I hate the feeling of being left out, or not cared about, WHEN something an be done about it....when something abbbsolutely cannot be done about it whatsoever, I will eventually understand. but its not right to leave out friends either. An exception: you are friends with two different groups of friends, the two groups don't relate very well, so you hang with each group seperately....that seems ok, everybody gets a fair turn. And its really hard to stand(or sit for that matter) around and watch your friends do something without you just because! Because, because, bluh-blah! ::wants to host something when his new room is done:: OH YEAH! ::gets out of SHITTY SELF INFLICTED depressed mood:: I get my room re-done...it should alll be done by saturday night....so sunday I shall invite over guests....I doubt that anyone'll show up at MY gathering though...but w/e...life is for losers, and I....WILL be a winner some day. (btw nothing in this update mentioned specific names, do not interpret anything against YOU)