Some things never change.
You would think that since today is my New Year, I would be in a better mood . . . but no, I am not. I cannot help it really . . . my patience for people is pretty much gone . . . and there are only a select few that I can stand being around for more than 5 minutes before I want to either throw them into a wall ot out the window . . . and that is me being nice. Lets not even think about what I want to do to those who are not even IN my friend group . . . *sigh* I am in a pretty good mood for the most in all honesty . . . I just cannot stand people, hehe. Go figure. It is just that certain people . . . the moment that they open their mouths, I just want to knock them into the wall . . . just to shut them up. *watches Jess look up "sexy" women in lingerie* Where was I? Oh yeah . . . friends . . . i need to think . . . things need to be figured out . . . badly . . .
*grins* Some things never change . . . no matter how much they may seem like it . . . nor who comes into the picture or leaves . . . some things always stay . . . and I am hopeing that does not change . . . I need that stability . . . and I think others do as well . . . maybe . . . *grins more*
Well, like I said, this is my New Year . . . lets hope this next year goes better than this one . . . at least to start with . . . we will find out if I can ever find this guy . . . lol, always around when you make an ass of yourself, but never when you want to talk to him. So yeah . . . i need to do a cleasing again on my room . . . buff up a few things . . . make it harder for people to fight it off . . . and I think that I know just the way to do it to . . . but yeah. So . . . new year, new thoughts . . . new beginnings . . . yay!!!
For some reason, I am getting really nostalgic . . . I keep looking at certain pictures . . . times when things made sense . . . the sad part is, that time was only about year ago, lol. But some of the pictures . . . smiles that are not a mask but true emotion, laughter that rings in the ear that is not shrill, friendships new and vibrant . . . *slow smile* . . . those things are all still there . . . I know that they are . . . it just takes a bit to find them . . . to take off the masks . . . even mine own . . . hmm . . . I wonder if anyone will actually understand this post . . . or if it is just something that will remain in my head and there alone . . .
Okay . . . gotta run . . . *smile* Like I said, some things never change . . . *looks around the room* . . . *grin*
*grins* Some things never change . . . no matter how much they may seem like it . . . nor who comes into the picture or leaves . . . some things always stay . . . and I am hopeing that does not change . . . I need that stability . . . and I think others do as well . . . maybe . . . *grins more*
Well, like I said, this is my New Year . . . lets hope this next year goes better than this one . . . at least to start with . . . we will find out if I can ever find this guy . . . lol, always around when you make an ass of yourself, but never when you want to talk to him. So yeah . . . i need to do a cleasing again on my room . . . buff up a few things . . . make it harder for people to fight it off . . . and I think that I know just the way to do it to . . . but yeah. So . . . new year, new thoughts . . . new beginnings . . . yay!!!
For some reason, I am getting really nostalgic . . . I keep looking at certain pictures . . . times when things made sense . . . the sad part is, that time was only about year ago, lol. But some of the pictures . . . smiles that are not a mask but true emotion, laughter that rings in the ear that is not shrill, friendships new and vibrant . . . *slow smile* . . . those things are all still there . . . I know that they are . . . it just takes a bit to find them . . . to take off the masks . . . even mine own . . . hmm . . . I wonder if anyone will actually understand this post . . . or if it is just something that will remain in my head and there alone . . .
Okay . . . gotta run . . . *smile* Like I said, some things never change . . . *looks around the room* . . . *grin*