biiiiiiig grin... despite insane dreams
for the past two days i've been driving myself crazy with strange dreams.
this is aki88's realm, not mine. not that she's been having freaky dreams recently, except for the rainbow one... i mean, she's HAPPY, and i'm not about to take it away from her. she's deserved a break for such the longest time.
but as i've been saying: my subconcious has been pummelling me with symbols and i really can't find out what they mean in real life.
have i said anything about being caught by Professor Snape reading Harry Potter inside a dark cabinet? he infested my book with maggots and told me to look for the antidote in the library. i ran down, and started looking through the books in the Southville library... which is, of course, gone now. this dream was ages ago, mind you.
i remember another dream which also involved Southville... its elevator, to be precise. i was chasing some criminal who hid in the elevator. by the time i reached the top floor i had to run all the way back down because viktor krum and cedric diggory were having a "wand-less, potion-less" duel. figure that out, except that i'd obviously been reading too much Harry Potter.
but that wasn't disturbing. none of my dreams have been disturbing, it's the totally out of proportion reactions that i've been having that's disturbing.
such as yesterday, when my mother and i met mr. andretti and he went jogging with ms. yes-feline. and of course, i had to get all heat up about that. i actually dreamed i saw the two of them walking hand in hand down Faura, dangit. and i woke up furious.
i was never so jealous about DB, never. never about anyone - minor, knight, fish, hell even my current "dao ming sz" (this code name's courtesy of my darling students, whom i shall one day murder) or mr. AEschylus themselves. NEVER.
i'm not a jealous person by nature simply because i don't believe in the notion of romantic love in general. i'm the girl who considers guys to have an 'expiration date" of three weeks, in which time my infatuations invariably fade away, remember?
but mr. andretti... hell i don't even understand why i would like him. he drives me nuts! i can't understand half of what he says and he loves playing mind games with my poor little brain. he... he wears braces. he has big ears. ARGH! fine! HE SO DOES NOT CATER TO MY EVERY SHALLOW WISH OF ATTRACTIVENESS IN THE MAN I FALL IN LOVE WITH!
yes, i was ranting.
WHY am i reacting like this???!
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on the other hand, i'm still smiling.
who can fail to smile when *he* isn't going to Colorado after all, and now - thanks to AEschylus and Dao - i can act like a normal, voluble and sensible person around him? (let's just hope first impressions don't last.) ne, pyro-chan, you can meet this guy now. you know what? he's the reason i said - what i said. ("...you forgot your shampoo.") <- private joke...
who can fail to smile when i don't need to feel pedophaelic anymore? - i mean if ange likes michael choi, and she's about the most sensible person i know, certainly i can like someone 15 (erk) years old... and it's not like the infatuation will last... he's just... well, cute. "he" being... hm. i wonder. ayee may have seen him since i dumped all my stuff on him a while ago and then spent some time chasing him around the caf. silly kid.
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met mike gonzales a while ago. apparently we'd been staring at each other for the better part of fifteen minutes, sure that we knew each other. he didn't recognize me because i'm wearing gray contacts. i didn't recognize him because he's both taller and slimmer.
my mom caught him ruffling my hair. i wonder what she thought, 'cause her eyebrows jumped a mile. :P
this is aki88's realm, not mine. not that she's been having freaky dreams recently, except for the rainbow one... i mean, she's HAPPY, and i'm not about to take it away from her. she's deserved a break for such the longest time.
but as i've been saying: my subconcious has been pummelling me with symbols and i really can't find out what they mean in real life.
have i said anything about being caught by Professor Snape reading Harry Potter inside a dark cabinet? he infested my book with maggots and told me to look for the antidote in the library. i ran down, and started looking through the books in the Southville library... which is, of course, gone now. this dream was ages ago, mind you.
i remember another dream which also involved Southville... its elevator, to be precise. i was chasing some criminal who hid in the elevator. by the time i reached the top floor i had to run all the way back down because viktor krum and cedric diggory were having a "wand-less, potion-less" duel. figure that out, except that i'd obviously been reading too much Harry Potter.
but that wasn't disturbing. none of my dreams have been disturbing, it's the totally out of proportion reactions that i've been having that's disturbing.
such as yesterday, when my mother and i met mr. andretti and he went jogging with ms. yes-feline. and of course, i had to get all heat up about that. i actually dreamed i saw the two of them walking hand in hand down Faura, dangit. and i woke up furious.
i was never so jealous about DB, never. never about anyone - minor, knight, fish, hell even my current "dao ming sz" (this code name's courtesy of my darling students, whom i shall one day murder) or mr. AEschylus themselves. NEVER.
i'm not a jealous person by nature simply because i don't believe in the notion of romantic love in general. i'm the girl who considers guys to have an 'expiration date" of three weeks, in which time my infatuations invariably fade away, remember?
but mr. andretti... hell i don't even understand why i would like him. he drives me nuts! i can't understand half of what he says and he loves playing mind games with my poor little brain. he... he wears braces. he has big ears. ARGH! fine! HE SO DOES NOT CATER TO MY EVERY SHALLOW WISH OF ATTRACTIVENESS IN THE MAN I FALL IN LOVE WITH!
yes, i was ranting.
WHY am i reacting like this???!
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on the other hand, i'm still smiling.
who can fail to smile when *he* isn't going to Colorado after all, and now - thanks to AEschylus and Dao - i can act like a normal, voluble and sensible person around him? (let's just hope first impressions don't last.) ne, pyro-chan, you can meet this guy now. you know what? he's the reason i said - what i said. ("...you forgot your shampoo.") <- private joke...
who can fail to smile when i don't need to feel pedophaelic anymore? - i mean if ange likes michael choi, and she's about the most sensible person i know, certainly i can like someone 15 (erk) years old... and it's not like the infatuation will last... he's just... well, cute. "he" being... hm. i wonder. ayee may have seen him since i dumped all my stuff on him a while ago and then spent some time chasing him around the caf. silly kid.
---
met mike gonzales a while ago. apparently we'd been staring at each other for the better part of fifteen minutes, sure that we knew each other. he didn't recognize me because i'm wearing gray contacts. i didn't recognize him because he's both taller and slimmer.
my mom caught him ruffling my hair. i wonder what she thought, 'cause her eyebrows jumped a mile. :P