"If I Am a Princess in Rags and Tatters, I Can Be a Princess Inside."
Over Christmas, I was contacted by a job I had applied to back in August. Being an escape from the hell that was the call center, I leapt at it, despite the cut in pay. I do love my new job. It is very relaxing, and my boss seems to like me. The other day she even said I looked like "Candy Candy," which, to me, is a great compliment, perhaps the greatest I've ever received. I am rather stressed about my financial situation, though. I need another job or a better job soon. I don't want to let my boss down, so I'd prefer to find another part-time job. I already told my husband if I don't have another job within the next two weeks that we need to apply for food stamps.
Thinking about my situation, I really wish that I was wealthy. I'd love not having to worry about how to pay my bills. I could afford to buy more than one or two new outfits a year, and I could even take lessons to become a better person. What would be better than sitting around all day practicing the musical instruments I never learned to play? Or conversing in French? My mum says that I was born into the wrong family during the wrong century. I think she might be right.
I wish there was some way out of this situation, but my degree is all but useless. I wouldn't mind going to Japan for a year to earn some money, but I don't think I could bear to be parted from my husband for so long a time. Also, a good deal of that money would be spent, both on my rent there and here in Chicago. So would it really be beneficial?
I keep kicking around the idea of going to library school, but I don't know that I want to spend more money on another degree that I might never use. I keep reading about how difficult it is to be accepted to Urbana-Champaign's program, which is the only public program in the state, so that's rather discouraging. I think I'd be accepted at Pitt, which also has one of the top ten programs in the country, but being out-of-state now, I'd be paying $30,000 tuition. Granted, having many relatives and some acquaintances in Pittsburgh, I could probably find someone to stay with at little to no cost to me. But for either program, I need library experience, which I do not have.
Due to my lack of funds, some of you have likely noticed that I have disappeared from the local community. I am still very much a lolita. I wear dresses to work everyday, and I think if I didn't have the ability to feel like I was a princess above such financial difficulties, I'd just crumble. I'd like very much to be social, but I'd rather be with one or two people, instead of a large group. Now that I'm working at a salon, I only work three days a week, so I have a lot of ill-spent free time. Feel free to contact me. I'd really love to have some friends right now.
Thinking about my situation, I really wish that I was wealthy. I'd love not having to worry about how to pay my bills. I could afford to buy more than one or two new outfits a year, and I could even take lessons to become a better person. What would be better than sitting around all day practicing the musical instruments I never learned to play? Or conversing in French? My mum says that I was born into the wrong family during the wrong century. I think she might be right.
I wish there was some way out of this situation, but my degree is all but useless. I wouldn't mind going to Japan for a year to earn some money, but I don't think I could bear to be parted from my husband for so long a time. Also, a good deal of that money would be spent, both on my rent there and here in Chicago. So would it really be beneficial?
I keep kicking around the idea of going to library school, but I don't know that I want to spend more money on another degree that I might never use. I keep reading about how difficult it is to be accepted to Urbana-Champaign's program, which is the only public program in the state, so that's rather discouraging. I think I'd be accepted at Pitt, which also has one of the top ten programs in the country, but being out-of-state now, I'd be paying $30,000 tuition. Granted, having many relatives and some acquaintances in Pittsburgh, I could probably find someone to stay with at little to no cost to me. But for either program, I need library experience, which I do not have.
Due to my lack of funds, some of you have likely noticed that I have disappeared from the local community. I am still very much a lolita. I wear dresses to work everyday, and I think if I didn't have the ability to feel like I was a princess above such financial difficulties, I'd just crumble. I'd like very much to be social, but I'd rather be with one or two people, instead of a large group. Now that I'm working at a salon, I only work three days a week, so I have a lot of ill-spent free time. Feel free to contact me. I'd really love to have some friends right now.