Just another update...
At this point, I can't believe I was ever afraid that Rebecca wouldn't like me. Now she barely leaves my side! Sometimes... I wish she hadn't taken to me so well! lol I'm only kidding. It is absolutely wonderful.
I wish someone would have told me how hard this was going to be though, lol. I was NOT prepared.
It breaks my heart and makes me feel like a complete shitbag when I ask her not to do something or correct her for something she's done wrong, or threaten her with "corner time" if she acts up because she gives me hugs and kisses and for the first time yesterday she told me she loved me. MAN is it HARD!!!!
We're still working on her manners though. She can be very demanding and she's got a bit of a smart mouth on her, but we are slowly curbing all of that, at least while she's at our house. It surprises me sometimes how naturally I have stepped into a parenting role. I amaze myself with my decisions, lol. I know that sounds crazy, but really... if you knew me... yeah.
James and I have gotten into a couple of arguments though. He doesn't like punishing Rebecca and he gets angry with me when I tell him he needs to do something. I haven't figured out why he gets mad, but in the end he's ok because I'm right and he sees that and then he feels really bad. I think it's mostly exhaustion and stress.
In other news, James is trying to talk his boss into giving him a daytime post because for some reason I've been freaked out lately. I pretty much stress out and stay scared until around 5 a.m. I don't know why. I have this abnormal fear that someone is going to try to break in or that my Dad is going to come home and get mad at me for the house not being spotless (not that he EVER has.. in fact, he usually says "whatever, I don't care, I've seen worse" or I'm afraid our ghost is going to get out of hand. It's just strange.
The new development in the "ghost" thing is that it's a kid. I heard a kid laughing the other night at a time when NO kids would be out and it acts up when James and I argue, but mostly it keeps to itself save walking around (we catch things out of the corner of our eyes sometimes and Becca heard it walking one night, but we told her it was me just moving my foot around, heh.) It's harmless, but I'd still rather not be home along all night!
I wish someone would have told me how hard this was going to be though, lol. I was NOT prepared.
It breaks my heart and makes me feel like a complete shitbag when I ask her not to do something or correct her for something she's done wrong, or threaten her with "corner time" if she acts up because she gives me hugs and kisses and for the first time yesterday she told me she loved me. MAN is it HARD!!!!
We're still working on her manners though. She can be very demanding and she's got a bit of a smart mouth on her, but we are slowly curbing all of that, at least while she's at our house. It surprises me sometimes how naturally I have stepped into a parenting role. I amaze myself with my decisions, lol. I know that sounds crazy, but really... if you knew me... yeah.
James and I have gotten into a couple of arguments though. He doesn't like punishing Rebecca and he gets angry with me when I tell him he needs to do something. I haven't figured out why he gets mad, but in the end he's ok because I'm right and he sees that and then he feels really bad. I think it's mostly exhaustion and stress.
In other news, James is trying to talk his boss into giving him a daytime post because for some reason I've been freaked out lately. I pretty much stress out and stay scared until around 5 a.m. I don't know why. I have this abnormal fear that someone is going to try to break in or that my Dad is going to come home and get mad at me for the house not being spotless (not that he EVER has.. in fact, he usually says "whatever, I don't care, I've seen worse" or I'm afraid our ghost is going to get out of hand. It's just strange.
The new development in the "ghost" thing is that it's a kid. I heard a kid laughing the other night at a time when NO kids would be out and it acts up when James and I argue, but mostly it keeps to itself save walking around (we catch things out of the corner of our eyes sometimes and Becca heard it walking one night, but we told her it was me just moving my foot around, heh.) It's harmless, but I'd still rather not be home along all night!