Great news, but still not feeling great
So I'm finally leaving WZID for a "better" job. This means no more events, no more heavy lifting, but also no social life, but more pay and room for growth.
I recently looked on MySpace and saw one of my friend's pages. She has pictures of her friends that do a slide show. I realized while watching it, how much I have been and am missing out on in what's left of my youth. My life consists of work, school, Adam, and the band. I may have to quit the band, because of my schedule at work. But bills won't wait.
As for Adam and I, things are going well. We haven't killed eachother, and as of tomorrow we will have been together for 18 months. It really doesn't feel like that long, and yet it feels like forever.
I really wish I weren't feeling so down. I just miss school for the people, I miss people from High School, mostly Heather, Steph, and Joe, because Jonny still goes to school with me.
Maybe I'll write another angry song about it. I just don't know when I'll have time to sing it. I just feel empty and avoided. I know I exclude myself, but the people I hang around usually don't do things that I'm not into, or have "sleep over" type parties which I don't feel comfortable going to without Adam (and getting him to go is almost impossible with his work schedule). I'd just like to feel content with more than my relationship. I'd like to know that certain people are actually my friends rather than friends of circumstance.
I recently looked on MySpace and saw one of my friend's pages. She has pictures of her friends that do a slide show. I realized while watching it, how much I have been and am missing out on in what's left of my youth. My life consists of work, school, Adam, and the band. I may have to quit the band, because of my schedule at work. But bills won't wait.
As for Adam and I, things are going well. We haven't killed eachother, and as of tomorrow we will have been together for 18 months. It really doesn't feel like that long, and yet it feels like forever.
I really wish I weren't feeling so down. I just miss school for the people, I miss people from High School, mostly Heather, Steph, and Joe, because Jonny still goes to school with me.
Maybe I'll write another angry song about it. I just don't know when I'll have time to sing it. I just feel empty and avoided. I know I exclude myself, but the people I hang around usually don't do things that I'm not into, or have "sleep over" type parties which I don't feel comfortable going to without Adam (and getting him to go is almost impossible with his work schedule). I'd just like to feel content with more than my relationship. I'd like to know that certain people are actually my friends rather than friends of circumstance.